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jdfrazier
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Merciful Lord, I come to you broken hearted and scared. My Fred has been living with a horrible horrible weight inside of him for over 20 years, is it killing him…he has tried to let go and has tried to get help in passed it and he just can’t get passed it. He can’t deal with it any longer on his own. He has agreed only to get help if I leave. He doesn’t want to hurt me anymore or see me hurting. He thinks that I am too good for him. He is a very good, supportive, loving man in a horrible place. He doesn’t feel worthy of love and affection because of his past. I never knew how bad this has haunted him till today…he is in such turmoil inside…I will never forget the teary eyes and quivering chin and lips as he spoke to me. He will deal with the enter demon for a while then it will get a hold of him and hold on for a few days or weeks…he closes off, shuts down emotionally. He doesn’t feel worthy of love, he doesn’t love himself because he can’t work through his past. Lord I know You were there with us today (1-23-11) as we talked. I felt Your presence with us, You gave me Your worlds to speak to him. Please go to him, speak to him, hold him and guide him in Your arms. Tell him is worthy of unconditional love and grace and he is forgiven. I asked him if I am not here how do I know you are really getting the help you need…he said he will have the therapist call me on every visit to tell me he was there and list me as his contact information. Lord please bring him back to us whole…we love him unconditionally…I told him I would continue to play every day for us and him. Lord please give me strength for I am hurting…