DmanDuke
Disciple of Prayer
My lord.
For everything you have granted me in my life i am so thankful for from the deepest part of my heart and i am so sorry that i have lost my faith over the years, i have become a Black hearted, poisoned, jealous, ungrateful person that has lost my faith, myself, the love of my life, my job and dishonour to both Jackie K and our families! ive never wanted to be like this my Lord! and it pains me so deeply i dont know how...........i will ever make it up to you. Now that i think back ive asked and asked off you all the time and never returned my faith except a thank you for looking over me, Jackie and both our families and friends.
I feel as though Satan has gifted me with Anquish, hatered, jealousy and poisoned my heart full of blackness and sickness because i have lost my faith in you my Lord! i feel as though Satan has seen the void and filled it with his faith which is just pure Blackness and evil.
My Lord i am at such a great loss! my love of my life and i have walked away from each other due to my insulence and evil that has projected from me, my love of my life has walked away in tears and dejected as she tried to help me and i threw it in her face every time and now I'm killing inside as i love her so much and i am so sorry, im finding it hard to sleep at night. I tried to help myself and stop this evil that kept coming out of me before it was too late but it was like i had no control over my actions and i was hurting my love of my life! Jackie K, everytime! The things ive said to her, the uncaring selfish attitude towards her and the horrible things ive done in her presences like having no respect for her, my Lord she has so much passion, kindness, sensitivity and caring like i never seen anybody have except my parents, Jackie has a huge heart of gold i just dont know what i have become and i am so depressed and sick with guilt and despire i just have no idea what horrible monster i have become and i am so ashamed of myself its all i can do to live another day.
If i was to have another chance with Jackie K my Lord i would be very different, with your guidence and love i know i could be her everything again but i just dont know how to ask and or whether i should.
With your help and guidence my Lord i would love her, care for her, trust her, have an abundence of time for her, teach her, resect her and nerture her soul back to a loving girl again that she was when i first meet her, i am so frustrated at my insulence and why i didnt try harder when it would of mattered most.
My Lord Jackie K is everything to me and my hole world and i want her back in my life as i am very very much missing her and her warmth and compassion however i feel i have pushed to far so i am now asking for your much needed help please, I am asking for my sins to be washed away and then i can..... with your assistance help bring my much loved girl of my dreams back into my arms were i will hold her so tight and never let her go, never treat her like i did ever again. I would dearly love our souls to be together forever again and i would marry her in one of your many sacred houses and live happily ever after till the day you would require us to be in your presence my Lord.
If my request is possible could you guide my beautiful girl towards making contact with me again as i really want nothing more other than to be the best husband i can be for Jackie and son in law to her family, My sins are paramont first my Lord as i dont ever want to hurt her again as she is worth too much to me to ever ignore ever again so please wash my sins away and then guide my beautiful girl Jackie back to me and i will in honour of you my Lord do my absolute best and try my guts out to make things right and to thank you very much for all your help regarding this matter. If i could ask for one more thing can you please give me the strength to love you and your faith again i am looking out for you my Lord but its very dark here were i am, please give me a sign of light so i can find my way back to you.
Thank you my lord and i am so glad your on our side as being satan's little appretice is not for me, im a lover not a fighter and thats all i want to do..... is just love.
Praise to you my lord and i love you too very much.
Amen.
For everything you have granted me in my life i am so thankful for from the deepest part of my heart and i am so sorry that i have lost my faith over the years, i have become a Black hearted, poisoned, jealous, ungrateful person that has lost my faith, myself, the love of my life, my job and dishonour to both Jackie K and our families! ive never wanted to be like this my Lord! and it pains me so deeply i dont know how...........i will ever make it up to you. Now that i think back ive asked and asked off you all the time and never returned my faith except a thank you for looking over me, Jackie and both our families and friends.
I feel as though Satan has gifted me with Anquish, hatered, jealousy and poisoned my heart full of blackness and sickness because i have lost my faith in you my Lord! i feel as though Satan has seen the void and filled it with his faith which is just pure Blackness and evil.
My Lord i am at such a great loss! my love of my life and i have walked away from each other due to my insulence and evil that has projected from me, my love of my life has walked away in tears and dejected as she tried to help me and i threw it in her face every time and now I'm killing inside as i love her so much and i am so sorry, im finding it hard to sleep at night. I tried to help myself and stop this evil that kept coming out of me before it was too late but it was like i had no control over my actions and i was hurting my love of my life! Jackie K, everytime! The things ive said to her, the uncaring selfish attitude towards her and the horrible things ive done in her presences like having no respect for her, my Lord she has so much passion, kindness, sensitivity and caring like i never seen anybody have except my parents, Jackie has a huge heart of gold i just dont know what i have become and i am so depressed and sick with guilt and despire i just have no idea what horrible monster i have become and i am so ashamed of myself its all i can do to live another day.
If i was to have another chance with Jackie K my Lord i would be very different, with your guidence and love i know i could be her everything again but i just dont know how to ask and or whether i should.
With your help and guidence my Lord i would love her, care for her, trust her, have an abundence of time for her, teach her, resect her and nerture her soul back to a loving girl again that she was when i first meet her, i am so frustrated at my insulence and why i didnt try harder when it would of mattered most.
My Lord Jackie K is everything to me and my hole world and i want her back in my life as i am very very much missing her and her warmth and compassion however i feel i have pushed to far so i am now asking for your much needed help please, I am asking for my sins to be washed away and then i can..... with your assistance help bring my much loved girl of my dreams back into my arms were i will hold her so tight and never let her go, never treat her like i did ever again. I would dearly love our souls to be together forever again and i would marry her in one of your many sacred houses and live happily ever after till the day you would require us to be in your presence my Lord.
If my request is possible could you guide my beautiful girl towards making contact with me again as i really want nothing more other than to be the best husband i can be for Jackie and son in law to her family, My sins are paramont first my Lord as i dont ever want to hurt her again as she is worth too much to me to ever ignore ever again so please wash my sins away and then guide my beautiful girl Jackie back to me and i will in honour of you my Lord do my absolute best and try my guts out to make things right and to thank you very much for all your help regarding this matter. If i could ask for one more thing can you please give me the strength to love you and your faith again i am looking out for you my Lord but its very dark here were i am, please give me a sign of light so i can find my way back to you.
Thank you my lord and i am so glad your on our side as being satan's little appretice is not for me, im a lover not a fighter and thats all i want to do..... is just love.
Praise to you my lord and i love you too very much.
Amen.
