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Disciple of Prayer
Dear Lord,
I don't know how else to open to you. I have prayed silently in my head. I need help with my own life, but I'm very concerned for others -even if I don't shed a tear. Even if I cry and worry in private. I beg for you to heal ###. I know I'm just her health aide. I loved all my clients. I felt needed. ### was one client I really looked forward to seeing. I love her Lord. She said we were therapy for each other. Lord, you know her heart and you know she is good. As much as she complained. She is 84. She is bed bound completely. She manages for herself. Only with your blessing, did she get blessed with a strong mind and soul. Lord, I know she's said at times she wants to die and that she wants to be with her family, but people on earth here still need her. Like me and her granddaughter. I can't imagine a weekend without her. I really know you're gonna do your will God, but please give her more time. Lord, I'm crying out to you. I should pray more about the positive to praise you that you blessed me with allowing for her and I to cross paths. Then I feel guilty for not having more time with her and I sometimes lied when I said I couldn't make it. I really did want to help her. I'm sorry she had to suffer when the aides didn't change her diaper well. And when she wasn't eating. I always wanted to make sure she ate and had water but towards the end she ate less. I wish I met her sooner. I was her last aide on Thanksgiving before this happened. I want her to know I love her. I'm sorry God on her behalf for any sins she didn't have a chance to ask you for forgiveness because I know she would want them forgiven. Don't let her suffer, I ask you, but I want her happy and in peace if there is a way you can do that and keep her alive and stable I'd love that because she is a staple person in my life. I have to remember we don't live for other people. We live for God. That Jesus, God's only son, died on the cross for our sins, something unimaginable. We have to live to serve God, but in that Lord, I serve to help people. I try to. I fail at times, but I want you to know that I don't mind doing it and maybe that's my calling. Lord, I'm sorry, please. Amen.
I don't know how else to open to you. I have prayed silently in my head. I need help with my own life, but I'm very concerned for others -even if I don't shed a tear. Even if I cry and worry in private. I beg for you to heal ###. I know I'm just her health aide. I loved all my clients. I felt needed. ### was one client I really looked forward to seeing. I love her Lord. She said we were therapy for each other. Lord, you know her heart and you know she is good. As much as she complained. She is 84. She is bed bound completely. She manages for herself. Only with your blessing, did she get blessed with a strong mind and soul. Lord, I know she's said at times she wants to die and that she wants to be with her family, but people on earth here still need her. Like me and her granddaughter. I can't imagine a weekend without her. I really know you're gonna do your will God, but please give her more time. Lord, I'm crying out to you. I should pray more about the positive to praise you that you blessed me with allowing for her and I to cross paths. Then I feel guilty for not having more time with her and I sometimes lied when I said I couldn't make it. I really did want to help her. I'm sorry she had to suffer when the aides didn't change her diaper well. And when she wasn't eating. I always wanted to make sure she ate and had water but towards the end she ate less. I wish I met her sooner. I was her last aide on Thanksgiving before this happened. I want her to know I love her. I'm sorry God on her behalf for any sins she didn't have a chance to ask you for forgiveness because I know she would want them forgiven. Don't let her suffer, I ask you, but I want her happy and in peace if there is a way you can do that and keep her alive and stable I'd love that because she is a staple person in my life. I have to remember we don't live for other people. We live for God. That Jesus, God's only son, died on the cross for our sins, something unimaginable. We have to live to serve God, but in that Lord, I serve to help people. I try to. I fail at times, but I want you to know that I don't mind doing it and maybe that's my calling. Lord, I'm sorry, please. Amen.

