J
Jodie or jj
Guest
Please pray for my relationship with my children.I know I wasn't a perfect mother,we(the kids father and I)divorced when they were about 9 and 11,boy and girl,with the boy being the oldest.My children always came first,my relationship with Christ was not real consistant but from the time they were very little I took them to church,and they both agree they don't remember a time in their life that they didn't know Jesus and how to go to him.Our lives have been confusing to say the least but basically since my son married over 10 years ago he's practically pushed me out of his life,says he has a family now and they come first.Well of course I know his wife and children come first,I'm the one that taught him that principal,but it doesn't mean I have no place in his life,I'm crying as I type this,it's so painful.I had a stroke in may of 2006,neither one of my children even came to see me,My daughter became addicted to crystal-meth as an adult,29-30 and has been in and out of rehabs,just recently had a relapse,she gets very abusive,verbally,emotionally,She had her children taken from her ,by their father,and she tries to blame me,of course I know better but with my son's attitude and her illness I'm in such horrible pain,at times it consumes me.My children's father never did anything he didn't have to do by law,and made it very clear to my children that his wife comes first,and did terrible things to them as they were growing up,like locking them out,and most of the time let them know they really weren't welcome,and yet,he is their hero,they take the abuse and act as if he was their hero,I just don't get it,I was the one that sacrificed for them,and yet I get treated like an outsider,no mothers day,no birthday,no christmas,and yet I've never missed one of theirs with out a very good reason,and never without a phone call and card to make them feel special ,I realize this sounds like I've done something,but I really haven't.I have,and will continue to give this mess to the Lord,I've been living close to Christ for the last 2 years and have a wonderful church family,some things are almost too close to share,I go to sleep with this and wake up with it,I'm alone now,my husband of 13 years left me within a year of my stroke,I know God can heal all things,and that there's power in numbers,thats why I'm asking for prayer,I don't want to interfere in my childrens lives,just want to be in their lives,my grandchildren adore me,I'm missing out on so much that I'll never be able to get back,please pray for a healing,I just want a normal part of their lives.They both have accepted Christ,as a matter of fact my son and his family spent 3 years in honduras in ministry,and yet they treat me this way,I pray every day for a forgiving heart,it's so hard--In Him--jj
