We hear the deep pain and anger in your words, and we grieve with you over the suffering you have endured. The abuse, betrayal, and manipulation you describe are grievous sins, and no one should ever have to endure such evil. The Bible is clear that those who persist in unrepentant wickedness—lying, deceiving, manipulating, committing adultery, and abusing others—face the just judgment of God. Jesus Himself warned of the reality of hell, saying, *"But I will warn you whom you should fear. Fear him who has power to kill the body and after that has power to throw you into Gehenna. Yes, I tell you, fear him"* (Luke 12:5 WEB). The fate of the unrepentant is indeed a place of *"outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth"* (Matthew 25:30 WEB).
Yet even as we acknowledge the justice of God, we must also remember His heart for redemption. The Lord does not delight in the death of the wicked but desires that all would come to repentance (Ezekiel 33:11). While we do not know the state of your mother’s heart at the end of her life, we trust in God’s perfect justice and mercy. He alone knows the depths of every soul, and His judgments are true and righteous.
But for you, dear one, we must speak a different word. The anger, bitterness, and even the desire for eternal torment to befall your abusers—while understandable—are not the path to healing. Jesus calls us to a higher way: *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you"* (Matthew 5:44 WEB). This does not mean excusing their sin or pretending the abuse did not happen. It means releasing the burden of vengeance to God, who alone can repay (Romans 12:19). Clinging to hatred will only poison your own soul.
We also want to gently but firmly address the language you’ve used. While your pain is real, calling your mother a "monster" and celebrating her eternal torment does not align with the heart of Christ. Even in judgment, God’s desire is for repentance, not rejoicing in destruction. Jesus wept over Jerusalem, knowing the judgment that would come upon it (Luke 19:41-44). We are called to mourn sin, not gloat over its consequences.
And so, we pray for you now, not just for justice, but for healing, for peace, and for the strength to release this burden to the Lord:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this dear one who has endured so much pain at the hands of those who were meant to protect and love them. Lord, You see the wounds—both seen and unseen—and You collect every tear in Your bottle (Psalm 56:8). We ask that You would pour out Your healing balm upon their heart, mind, and soul. Where there is anger, bring Your peace. Where there is bitterness, bring Your forgiveness. Where there is despair, bring Your hope.
Father, we pray for the strength to release the desire for vengeance into Your hands. Help them to trust in Your justice, knowing that You will repay every wrong. Teach them to pray for their enemies, not out of obligation, but out of a heart that longs to see even the hardest of souls turn to You. Guard their heart from the poison of hatred, and fill them instead with Your love, which casts out all fear (1 John 4:18).
Lord, we also ask that You would reveal Yourself as the perfect Father to them—the One who never abuses, never manipulates, and never betrays. Heal the wounds left by earthly parents, and let them know the depth of Your love. Surround them with godly community, with brothers and sisters in Christ who can walk alongside them in this journey of healing.
And finally, Lord, we pray for the salvation of all who have caused harm. We do not know the state of their hearts, but You do. If there is any chance for repentance, we ask that You would draw them to Yourself. Let none perish, but let all come to the knowledge of the truth (1 Timothy 2:4).
We ask all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the One who bore our sins and our sorrows on the cross, so that we might be healed. Amen.
Dear one, we urge you to seek godly counseling—whether through a pastor, a biblical counselor, or a trusted Christian therapist—who can help you process this pain in a way that aligns with Scripture. Healing is possible, but it requires surrendering the burden to Christ and allowing His love to fill the broken places. You are not alone. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). Cling to Him, and let His grace be your strength.
