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Deni356
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This is my 1st Easter alone - I am in my 50's, have already been forced to live through so many adversities in life after loosing three family members; one my oldest son who was only 29 - died the very day I had started a new job four years ago - from there I had to sell things to live, rely on the state for assistance, move - have surgery - be hired for four jobs and let go within a few weeks after fulfilling a full corporate career that sustained me as a single Mother - My son and I transitioned and I was told by my doctors to apply for SSI hoping I'd return to work in Sept. 2010 yet the 4 treating doctors while I was admitted 4 times to the hospital for a rare heart condition where surgery can not be done to help me - cognitive issues from a lesion on my brain, lung issues, Fibro and stomach issues - now on a fixed income -was able to lease a small apartment for myself and my son and now my son has abruptly moved out since February and has changed so much in a few weeks. He's staying with friends and I was hoping this would resolve and he would come back home but it hasn't - in fact he has more anger then I ever imagined him to have - and I do not see the reason. His father was an abusive alcoholic who died two years ago - and we lived apart for 11 years. I'm a give - I give to help others and now I sit here alone - wondering what will be. This sadness has taken over me - and I'm at threat of loosing this apt. come June. My son needs to grow up - he's left behind his cat and seems so harsh - there is just no approaching him at all.
Please pray for mercy to the Lord. Please pray that I find the wisdom and am blessed with ways to keep this apt. on my own. Please pray that this sadness leave - for I know in my heart I was a good mother who is being treated in a bad way over an immature son. Please Lord I bow my head down and say enough of this - to know that I've had great faith and have climbed so far back to life this feels like a waking nightmare daily. My friends are gone - most of them walked away months after my family members passed as if death was contagious - I'm no longer going out to a busy office to distract myself nor do I have the strength. In Jesus name I ask all of you to pray with me for favor that my head stays high - and I do not loose what I have gained in the past two years. Amen and God bless all who pray.
Deni
Please pray for mercy to the Lord. Please pray that I find the wisdom and am blessed with ways to keep this apt. on my own. Please pray that this sadness leave - for I know in my heart I was a good mother who is being treated in a bad way over an immature son. Please Lord I bow my head down and say enough of this - to know that I've had great faith and have climbed so far back to life this feels like a waking nightmare daily. My friends are gone - most of them walked away months after my family members passed as if death was contagious - I'm no longer going out to a busy office to distract myself nor do I have the strength. In Jesus name I ask all of you to pray with me for favor that my head stays high - and I do not loose what I have gained in the past two years. Amen and God bless all who pray.
Deni
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