Sabitha, I know you are in a hard, hard situation tonight. Remember this though, your life is not yours to take, you have no authority to take what the Lord has been given. You've given your life to Jesus and he is now in you so you don't have the authority to take your life. You have to turn this over to Jesus and the same God that has brought you this far, through many miracles which i've read on this site, that same God will bring you out of this. Don't give up Sabitha, don't ever give up....you can make it, if it's minute to minute, then it is, then before long it will be hour to hour then day to day and then you are fully consumed by our Lord Jesus Christ and then....all will be well with your soul. As a Christian brother in Christ, I love you Sister...you are my Sister in Christ, we are supposed to love our neighbors and you have people that care for you, so keep your head up and continue down this narrow road which we walk, for it will all be worth it when we get to heaven after God takes us there. God bless you Sabitha, I know he will.