Skopypto
Disciple of Prayer
After being apart in a disastrous summer as I tried to save my failing business, my wife of 6 years, partner of 15, has fallen out of love with me and is done. I know I deserve it as last few months outside of futile working I've just been mired in shame, self-pity, and weed, and she's just done and not even interested in trying... I deserve all of it as I didn't see it coming (I should have), but I don't think I survive a divorce. We have two amazing boys that will need me. I have/am making the changes I need (no drugs, financial and emotional support. Getting back in shape I'm doing it all) but she's not even willing to try. Every day is a heartache and even if it's God giving me the sweet release of death (I have a lot of life insurance) I need help and God doesn't seem interested in me either right now either, whatever His divine plan may be, maybe it does involve my destruction and I am sure His reasons are right. I would just really like to stave that off, even a small sign of encouragement, anything at this point. I'm so lonely and business is still struggling. Any help, any pleas to the Almighty to help would be appreciated. Thank you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.