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lisak
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I was married to a non-believer for 15yrs. He has been a Christian now for a little over a year.
From the first few months of our marriage, he had inappropriate relationships with women and multiple
affairs. The worst was defamation of my character. Portraying me to others as someone I was not at all.
So he got great sympathy as to why he did what he did. No one knew, I spent 3yrs in Christian counseling
just to learn how deal with his negativity and anger, plus the affair I found. He refused to go at the time,
I was the problem. (The counseler had asked me 3 times if my children and I had some place to go) So it happend again
God brought that and everything else I had suspected to light.(e-mails, texts, banking, phone records)
I had no clue that it started from the begining of our marriage. I feel like I was living a lie. He is a
wounderful man now. He has true repetance. But I relize I have great brokeness in my heart and soul. Many years
of emotional neglect, meaness, lies, very arrogant behavior and feeling not loved or cherished. This has
wounded me way more than I thought. I need to heal, but I dont want to feel this way for years. Sometimes
I just want to go. Leave start over. But I want to do, what God wants me to do. I just dont know how I'm
going to get past everything that has happend. So please pray for us! Could you also pray for my friend
Sylvia that she would come to Christ. Thank you so very much.
From the first few months of our marriage, he had inappropriate relationships with women and multiple
affairs. The worst was defamation of my character. Portraying me to others as someone I was not at all.
So he got great sympathy as to why he did what he did. No one knew, I spent 3yrs in Christian counseling
just to learn how deal with his negativity and anger, plus the affair I found. He refused to go at the time,
I was the problem. (The counseler had asked me 3 times if my children and I had some place to go) So it happend again
God brought that and everything else I had suspected to light.(e-mails, texts, banking, phone records)
I had no clue that it started from the begining of our marriage. I feel like I was living a lie. He is a
wounderful man now. He has true repetance. But I relize I have great brokeness in my heart and soul. Many years
of emotional neglect, meaness, lies, very arrogant behavior and feeling not loved or cherished. This has
wounded me way more than I thought. I need to heal, but I dont want to feel this way for years. Sometimes
I just want to go. Leave start over. But I want to do, what God wants me to do. I just dont know how I'm
going to get past everything that has happend. So please pray for us! Could you also pray for my friend
Sylvia that she would come to Christ. Thank you so very much.
