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lisak
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I was married to a non-believer for 15 yrs. He has been a Christian now for a little over a year.
From the first few months of our marriage, he had inappropriate relationships with women and multiple affairs. The worst was defamation of my character. Portraying me to others as someone I was not at all.
So he got great sympathy as to why he did what he did. No one knew, I spent 3 yrs in Christian counseling just to learn how to deal with his negativity and anger, plus the affair I found. He refused to go at the time, I was the problem. (The counselor had asked me 3 times if my children and I had some place to go) So it happened again
God brought that and everything else I had suspected to light. (e-mails, texts, banking, phone records)
I had no clue that it started from the beginning of our marriage. I feel like I was living a lie. He is a wonderful man now. He has true repentance. But I realize I have great brokenness in my heart and soul. Many years of emotional neglect, meanness, lies, very arrogant behavior and feeling not loved or cherished. This has wounded me way more than I thought. I need to heal, but I don't want to feel this way for years. Sometimes I just want to go. Leave start over. But I want to do what God wants me to do. I just don't know how I'm going to get past everything that has happened. So please pray for us! Could you also pray for my friend ### that she would come to Christ. Thank you so very much.
From the first few months of our marriage, he had inappropriate relationships with women and multiple affairs. The worst was defamation of my character. Portraying me to others as someone I was not at all.
So he got great sympathy as to why he did what he did. No one knew, I spent 3 yrs in Christian counseling just to learn how to deal with his negativity and anger, plus the affair I found. He refused to go at the time, I was the problem. (The counselor had asked me 3 times if my children and I had some place to go) So it happened again
God brought that and everything else I had suspected to light. (e-mails, texts, banking, phone records)
I had no clue that it started from the beginning of our marriage. I feel like I was living a lie. He is a wonderful man now. He has true repentance. But I realize I have great brokenness in my heart and soul. Many years of emotional neglect, meanness, lies, very arrogant behavior and feeling not loved or cherished. This has wounded me way more than I thought. I need to heal, but I don't want to feel this way for years. Sometimes I just want to go. Leave start over. But I want to do what God wants me to do. I just don't know how I'm going to get past everything that has happened. So please pray for us! Could you also pray for my friend ### that she would come to Christ. Thank you so very much.
