michellerwilliams
Disciple of Prayer
Lord, I pray for the patience to deal with the things that are being thrown in my direction. My husband and I separated a couple of years ago for 2 weeks. At that time I was talking to someone else. What I did was stupid, and I found out that my husband had an afair with my best friend a couple years earlier. After being together for 13 years my husband asked me how many guys I had slept with prior to meeting him. That is not a question that you should ask your wife because it is the past and it really shouldn't matter. I spouted out some ridiculous number out of anger and then later told him 1/2 of that. That was of no importance and had nothing to do with our relationship so I have no idea why he was pushing the issue. Now there are days when he has a bad dream or sees something on TV that triggers negative thoughts. We reconciled over 2 years ago and everything will be going great, then all of a sudden the devil comes in for the attack. Dennis starts thinking terrible thoughts about me and looks at me with disgust. We have a 4 year old son and want nothing more than to raise him together. Now Dennis has a friend who is going through a break up with his girlfriend of 11+ years and he is leaning on Dennis for support. He is doing all kinds of crazy things and showing Dennis pictures of naked women and texts from all of the women who are contacting him from -banned site-. I feel like it is causing issues in my marriage because Dennis has been struggling with his demons and has been torn between staying with me or going out and sleeping around with everyone and moving on without me. We have a really good relationship but he is having trouble forgiving me for being young and stupid. I can feel the distance between us. Please intervene Lord before it is too late. I don't want to lose my husband and I don't want our little boy to grow up in a broken home. I ask that you do Your work in our lives and remove the demons from our home, work and minds. Bring us closer to You so we can do what we had planned to do and enjoy a nice 10 year wedding anniversary by renewing our vows next year as planned years ago. I love You Lord and I ask that you protect my family and my marriage. Get to the root of Dennis' darkness so he can put the thoughts of my past in his past and move forward with me the right way. I am tired of worrying if he is going to leave and walking on egg shells when he spouts out negative words toward me and says he is joking. That is why I left the 1st time. I promise that I will never leave again, but I don't want to live with walls up. I just want to enjoy my family as if nothing bad had ever come between us. Please protect us. I ask these things in the name of Jesus. Amen.
