Anonymous
Beloved of All
Last year, I caught my "###" cheating. This is the SECOND time & we've been married for 15 years. I kicked her out.. she came home a few days later & asked if she could stay here until she saved for her own place.. she's been here over a Year & makes almost $2k a MONTH & hasn't given me ANY $. I own a Plumbing Company & I haven't been able to work myself in almost 6 Months.. First off, I broke my Foot TWICE & Can barely Walk & on top of THAT my Work vans Catalytic was stolen (Shocker) and a NEW one?
$O Expensive !! So I subbed the jobs out to my uncle & I still made about $2-$4k a Month BUT he passed away. And now all my savings are depleted. Ok so I decide, I will sell my Home & I would have $ & be able to leave here & and her too .. But NOW I'm behind 1 MONTH in Mortgage ... She won't help me because "SHE'S BROKE" .. Hardly but whatever !! And she thinks she deserves 1/2 of MY HOME !!! Which won't be MY home much Longer if I don't catch up. I've applied for a loan 3 times & I get turned sown because SHE took out a Loan for $3k I didn't even KNOW about when we had a Joint account. So when I caught her, she stopped paying !!! It hit me like a Bomb... Destroyed my Credit !! And through all this, would you believe I STILL Care for her?! I don't want to be married to her anymore but I don't want to see her want for things.... Lord God, I feel like I'm holding a Grudge against her & by reading this it's Obvious. I do NOT want to be Angry or Regretful.. I find myself thinking about Revenge, to make Her Hurt like I am... But Revenge is YOURS, not mine !! Please stop me from thinking Negatively against the one woman who Loved YOU enough to Impress me So much I married her. But WHO did I really Marry Lord ??? Help me to do the right things & Make the Decisions You want me to make Lord....Amen
$O Expensive !! So I subbed the jobs out to my uncle & I still made about $2-$4k a Month BUT he passed away. And now all my savings are depleted. Ok so I decide, I will sell my Home & I would have $ & be able to leave here & and her too .. But NOW I'm behind 1 MONTH in Mortgage ... She won't help me because "SHE'S BROKE" .. Hardly but whatever !! And she thinks she deserves 1/2 of MY HOME !!! Which won't be MY home much Longer if I don't catch up. I've applied for a loan 3 times & I get turned sown because SHE took out a Loan for $3k I didn't even KNOW about when we had a Joint account. So when I caught her, she stopped paying !!! It hit me like a Bomb... Destroyed my Credit !! And through all this, would you believe I STILL Care for her?! I don't want to be married to her anymore but I don't want to see her want for things.... Lord God, I feel like I'm holding a Grudge against her & by reading this it's Obvious. I do NOT want to be Angry or Regretful.. I find myself thinking about Revenge, to make Her Hurt like I am... But Revenge is YOURS, not mine !! Please stop me from thinking Negatively against the one woman who Loved YOU enough to Impress me So much I married her. But WHO did I really Marry Lord ??? Help me to do the right things & Make the Decisions You want me to make Lord....Amen

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.