I want the life God intends
Disciple of Prayer
Lord you know how frustrated and tired I am of everything on this planet. I am overwhelmed with despair. It is driving me to insanity. At every turn the enemy tries to rob me of your good gifts. My marriage, my happiness, my health, my livelihood. My wife and I are consumed with animosity for each other. The good job you gave me when the devil robbed me of my old job due to a health problem...that too stands to be lost now for the same reason. I have faith that you want what is good for me and my family. But it seems whenever I put more faith in You, the devil clouds my heart with overwhelming problems, despair and misery. You promised you would never give us more than we can handle. I don't mean to be disrespectful or ingrateful, but I can't handle this anymore. I don't know how to be happy or joyful anymore. I haven't felt love in many years. I only have stress, worry and strife. I don't want it! I need your joy and peace! Please touch the hearts of those who are responsible for my medical waiver so I may continue to work at the job you gave me. Please help me and my wife stop punishing each other so we may enjoy all the good gifts you have given us. Touch my wife's heart so she can forgive me and love me the way you intended her to. Please touch my heart so I can forgive her and love her the way you intend me too. Help us be more Christlike and not so self centered. I pray this in Jesus' name, amen.