Anonymous
Beloved of All
Lord, why do you not help me? What is my life worth? I have prayed to you for so long,. I am so sorry that I didn't pray to you daily before this situation came about. How can you allow him to suffer for seasons? it has been almost a year and I cry evedryday. I ask for discernment and there is none. How can you let others be so mean and vile to me? How can you let him hurt me with so much pain and talk to me like I am nothing? I have been kind and given so much. I have been through so much. I am not saying I have not done wrong and I have asked for forgiveness, But I have been faithful in prayer and doing what is right. You ARE allowing him to prosper in every area of his life when he is mean, rude, and dismissive of me when I don't even call, write, or text him. Are you telling me that I am not worth my prayers to you? But that my husband is deserving of all of your blessings? I have asked you to speak to his heart. The bible says nothing it too hard for you, but there is nothing but daily pain and emptiness for me. I go to work, come home, read my bible and pray. I will never be able to overcome this because I know I have let you down in the past. But I thought I paid for that the first and second time this happened. Don't you want us to pray for another person? Aren't we suppose to love - the greatest commandment of all? Why do you make me suffer after EVERYTHING you know I have been through? I am close to death and there is NO one around. I cry out to my Lord everyday. My pain is so much, But it seems that I will never be a good servant of the Lord. I am so sorry. I hope God sees all of your prayers and answers everyone of them. Bye.
