Anonymous
Beloved of All
Lord, make Your name known to nations in my sufferings. Lead mo to worse and worse depression every day and take away my hope that I may loose hope in You. Turn all my blessings into curses and make my curses 10 times worse that I might suffer the maximum. Do not let me meet new friends, and make existing friends abandon me that I may feel alone. Specially keep me from meeting my wife that I may be forever single. Please make me tragically loose my job, my health and my family. Make me go trough much pain every day. Direct my paths so that I wont turn to you that I woul go to hell after my life, not heaven. Do not ever let me meet my wife because then I might feel happy and even turn from my wicked ways. Dont risk with me getting to Heaven. Bless others with all kind of good things before my eyes that I may see and experience how much all others are more valuable than me. Every time I pray or cry to you send me new sufferings instead. So to church and other who pray for me that you dont hear those prayers and make my life worse under their eyes that they may see Your power. Do not give me strength to overcome pornography that hell would be guaranteed destiny of my path. Send many accidents to my life that I may also suffer physical pain in addition to mental pain. Do not let me feel your calling, care or love that I wouldnt turn to you. Take away Your Holy Spirit from me and send demons to torment me like you did with Saul. Let me forget you completely and die painful death. Make my sufferings perfect Lord. Do not let me to have any joy in this life and also send me to hell. Make me suffer in both this life and life to come. Make me die a painful death with no one to feel sorry for me. May your name be glorified in this. Make me go trough all supernatural that pharaoh went trough, and also "natural" stuff, that everyone would see Your power and anger in me and that seeing this would make them give glory to You! In Jesus name! Amen!