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Lord Jesus, tonight I give up my faith in You. I can't hold on to You anymore. Your promises have not come true for me, my joy is not full, I have knocked at the door and the house is abandoned. I have asked, and have not received. All You have done in my life is create pain, and misery. Hospital stays, abuse, homelessness, and mockery. It is not for my lack of love in You, or for my lack of belief in You, because I do now and probably always will believe that God exists, and that You created me, but clearly You're not listening to me, and have not made good on Your word to me. I am leaving the faith, Lord Jesus, and can no longer worship You. Trying to hold on while I suffer like this, in this hell You created of a life, is worse than not holding on. I have asked repeatedly, and the amount of people who have prayed for me and with me number in the thousands. You said that that meant that the answer was coming swiftly, but no answer has come. I am finished suffering, and punishing myself because You won't answer these prayers. I give up my faith and worship of You now, Jesus Christ living Son of the Eternal God. I pray that as I go You protect me from evil.
