The LORD God of Truth, help me to explain! Healing through confession: I asked someone on a date and told them 6 months. I completely forgot and was disinterested and called them ugly after seeing a picture of them in a wedding dress. My bad, I have cut off nearly all social interaction while I recover from drug use in order to be healed from the amount of disorder. I'm not sure if there was a multitude of religious persecution after this. Because of personal porn use, I found it strange that they appeared in a wedding dress in a picture. The LORD Jesus, please destroy disgusting behaviors and offenses that are causing problems in the present and future. Jesus, please destroy the unity of fasting due to emulations. I asked Jesus to bless people that I didn't want to bless, and it caused betrayal and worse behaviors to appear. Another problem is my grandpa's toolbox. Before moving to a new house it was highly likely that it was to be thrown away. I opened it, and new problems had appeared. Grandpa was in the military Seabees, and there may have been military construction tools. Because of religious magics, I completely despise everyone already. A coincidence happened where someone had checked on the tools in a strange trespass; and then a saying in an unrelated aspect, a person with the same name had said "chad check." I remember trespassing into a Filipino person's house because it felt correct to do so, the manner is to just notify them before entering. I remember someone saying not to do drugs at the house, and then I did drugs anyway. I can't remember the specifics of it. I hope the LORD Jesus destroys the soul and spirit that caused personal error. Though I blame myself because of drug-modifying behavior. I feel like Christ is for humiliation and is a trap and I have wishes that the LORD allows the worst to happen to the people. I hope the LORD destroys any issues and problems from school, such as having medicated bronchitis, then attending Spanish class while coughing. Also, I completely forgot to give gifts to people, and I just personally don't want any gifts. Thanks, LORD Jesus for peace, providence, and progress in Jesus' name, Amen.