Croidarsil
Disciple of Prayer
I feel like sometimes mentally I'm struggling. I have mental illness since 9 years old, but God took most my pain away at mid-January at 2024. However, I do struggle sometimes, and when I'm around my dad, I feel spiritually and stuff uncomfortable. My brother is type 1 diabetic, and we just need prayers and peace, mainly for my type 1 diabetic brother. I don't really like opening about my personal life to nobody; I only want to trust God that's it. But my dad is an alcoholic and a gambler and smoker, and he's type 2 diabetic. He had a car accident today but just has headaches. We try to get away from him because he's financially abusive and stuff too. I really appreciate you being patient with me, and I just want us to have a permanent peaceful and happy life. It seems my mom still cares for him, but he's I feel like acts nice and stuff because he's on investigation—I think I don't know how it's called for months of financially abusing me. I prefer to keep this private, but I just want me and my siblings and mom and anyone who's struggling to be kept in prayers. There are times I kinda allow the devil in, or he tries to attack me; I don't know myself, and I just want us to be happy and at peace. I feel lonely sometimes, and it's like a hard situation. Like I want to go away and have my own place, but that's complicated because this world is full of monsters. I'm 21 years old, living with my family, but I feel like that's impossible sometimes, but not often because with God, anything is possible. However, I do feel insecure sometimes, and I don't know how I feel sometimes. I have anger issues and unknown struggles. Like, if I ever get my phone taken away or anything, I'll have a mental tantrum. I hope this all makes sense, and I know this is a lot, but I just need prayers. I just want to be with God and away from everyone in peace. Like, I want to be in the streets alone. I know that sounds horrible, but I can't do it, and I'm cautious about my safety.
My mom has weed problems; she's a good person, but also she can be overprotective, which I don't mind, same with dad, but I just don't feel comfortable around my dad, but I just keep it to myself. He doesn't physically hurt me, but he just a lot of times gives himself up to the devil, and I just want anything that's from the devil to remove permanently again in our lives, and we work on ourselves. We're homeless and live in hotels because my dad wouldn't pay the rent. My dad has hypertension too and an aneurysm. I don't know how to spell that. I really appreciate your patience and listening and your prayers. My name is ###, and I'm 21 years old. And I feel suicidal sometimes because I've been looked at sexually instead of as a young woman before. I'm trying my best to keep myself distant from people because there are a lot of fake friends and bad people. But I have a friend also; he's Jamaican, and I like him, and he's 20 years old. He's been through a lot right now, and his communication skills are off, so it's nothing wrong with that, but his stepmother raped him after drugging him, I believe, and his mom and anyone mistreated him. He has friends, which is good. I just want him and everyone to be kept in prayers.
My mom has weed problems; she's a good person, but also she can be overprotective, which I don't mind, same with dad, but I just don't feel comfortable around my dad, but I just keep it to myself. He doesn't physically hurt me, but he just a lot of times gives himself up to the devil, and I just want anything that's from the devil to remove permanently again in our lives, and we work on ourselves. We're homeless and live in hotels because my dad wouldn't pay the rent. My dad has hypertension too and an aneurysm. I don't know how to spell that. I really appreciate your patience and listening and your prayers. My name is ###, and I'm 21 years old. And I feel suicidal sometimes because I've been looked at sexually instead of as a young woman before. I'm trying my best to keep myself distant from people because there are a lot of fake friends and bad people. But I have a friend also; he's Jamaican, and I like him, and he's 20 years old. He's been through a lot right now, and his communication skills are off, so it's nothing wrong with that, but his stepmother raped him after drugging him, I believe, and his mom and anyone mistreated him. He has friends, which is good. I just want him and everyone to be kept in prayers.
