Christopherperez
Disciple of Prayer
I kept my ex-girlfriend in prayers for a month to be saved and to repent from her backsliding. I don't know if it's normal or if there's any advice, but I'm tired of praying for her and even thinking about her because I do miss her, but I don't want to pray anymore; she's in the world and that's her choice, but I want to forget about her because every time I pray, it hurts because all I pray is for her salvation and it reminds me how much I miss her and love her. I'm lost; I'm still going to church, praying, reading my word, listening to sermons, but the pain is there. When I say I'm going to stop praying for her, God continues to put it in my heart to pray for her, and I'm confused because my flesh doesn't want to anymore; it's too hard because I miss her and she's out in the world doing worldly things. Any advice? I feel like David in a cave because all I do is work and go to church and come home, and I'm trying to stay composed, but the enemy tries to put ideas in my head to bring me down, and I rebuke him. I feel like God is just being silent, and I'm hurting a lot. I already tried committing suicide a month ago, but I'm trying my best to keep my faith and continue to do more in His word and follow Him. Any advice? I already put it in my head that I'm never going to hear from her again and she's not coming back, so I want to forget all about her, but God continues to put it in my heart to pray for her and her salvation, but it's hard on me. My name is ###, and my ex-girlfriend's name is ###.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.