Just what's going on with me

[Anonymous]

a lot happened in my life recently. To recap, I confessed Jesus as Lord when I was ### and then learned the Bible and Jesus for ### years. My stepdad was a harsh and angry man. He hit me and yelled at me a lot. But my relationship with God I guess was ok. Moved to my dad for a little and mm and stepdad divorced. Then I began to hate God and compromise sexually by first thinking sexual thoughts about women. Then taking longer glances at women. Then my lust went to men, something which has never happened before. Then to animals. Then to children. Then watching porn. I deserve to die. And I don't think God wants me anymore. I'm scared that I'm an apostate or am almost an apostate. I don't need any lovely dovey everything is ok kinda stuff. I need Jesus. Everyone says I need to forgive myself for the past and stop being stubborn. Everyone tells me I beat myself up. I'm stubborn. That I'm too young and I have my entire life ahead of me. I don't care though. I need Jesus or else nothing else matters. my sins need to be forgiven or else I'm dead already. I don't know what to do. I catch myself saying in my head things like I don't want to repent. Even though I want to repent and have Jesus. I want Jesus. But Esau wanted the blessing and tried to repent with tears but he never got it. I'm a fake. I'm sexually immoral. I deserve to die. I have nothing left. I can't hide behind anymore walls and say everything is fine. I'm dying and I don't know how to hold on. I know it says faith, but how am I supposed to love God if I hate Him? How am I supposed to accept His word if I hate Him? How can I change if I'm already at this point. People say, "You care so that means you haven't become an apostate." Well Esau cared... Anyways, I got on a rant but I guess pray please I don't know thanks.

 

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We understand that you're going through a profoundly difficult time, and we appreciate your honesty in sharing your struggles. First, we want to address the most important aspect: you mentioned that you confessed Jesus as Lord; this is the foundational truth in your life. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. There is no other name by which we can be saved. We want to assure you that Jesus Christ is faithful, even when we are not.

Your experiences with your stepdad have clearly left deep wounds, and the sexual struggles you're facing are a result of the fallen world we live in. But remember, God's forgiveness is greater than any sin, and His love is deeper than any wound.

Let's turn to the Word of God for guidance and encouragement. In Romans 3:22-24 WEB it says, "the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ to all and on all those who believe. For there is no distinction, for all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God; being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus."

Regarding your feelings of apostasy, consider this: even Peter, one of Jesus' closest disciples, denied Him three times. Yet Jesus forgave and restored him. In Luke 22:31-32 WEB, Jesus says, "Simon, Simon, behold, Satan asked to have all of you, that he might sift you as wheat, but I prayed for you, that your faith wouldn’t fail. You, when once you have turned again, establish your brothers."

Your feelings of hatred towards God are real, but they are not the end of your story. In Psalm 38:4 WEB, David writes, "For my iniquities have gone over my head. As a heavy burden, they are too heavy for me." Yet, David was known as a man after God's own heart.

Regarding your sexual struggles, remember that God's design for sexuality is between a husband and a wife. In Hebrews 13:4 WEB it says, "Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled: for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterers."

God's forgiveness is available to you, no matter what you've done. In 1 Corinthians 6:9-11 WEB, it says, "Don’t you know that the unrighteous will not inherit God’s Kingdom? Don’t be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor slanderers, nor extortioners, will inherit God’s Kingdom. Such were some of you, but you were washed. But you were sanctified. But you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and in the Spirit of our God."

Let us pray for you:

Dear Heavenly Father,

We come before You, lifting up our brother who is hurting and struggling. We thank You that he has confessed Jesus as Lord, and we ask that You would strengthen his faith. Lord, heal the wounds from his past, and help him to forgive his stepdad. Help him to turn away from his sexual sins and to live in purity. Give him the power to love You, even when he feels like he hates You. Help him to accept Your word and Your love. Give him a new heart, a heart of flesh. Help him to know that You are not a God that turns away those who come to You in repentance. Help him to know that You are a God of forgiveness and grace and help him to know with confidence that Jesus is his advocate.

In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

We're here with you, friend. We understand that you're feeling lost and confused, but remember, you're not alone. Jesus is right there with you, even in the darkest of times.

You've mentioned that you've confessed Jesus as Lord, and that's the most important thing. That's the starting point of our faith. But it's also okay to feel angry, to feel like you hate God. The Bible tells us that even David, a man after God's own heart, felt this way. In Psalm 88:8, he says, "You have put me in the lowest pit, in the darkest depths." It's okay to feel this way, but it's not okay to stay there.

You've also mentioned that you've been struggling with sexual impurity. We know that God's design for sexuality is pure and beautiful, and anything outside of that can leave us feeling empty and ashamed. But remember, God is not shocked by your struggles. He knows them all, and He loves you still. In 1 Corinthians 6:9-11, we read about people who were once trapped in sexual sin, but they were washed, they were sanctified, they were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus. That's a promise for you too.

We're praying for you, that God would give you the strength to turn away from these sins, that He would heal the wounds of your past, and that He would help you to love Him again. We're praying that you would know the truth of God's love for you, even when you feel like you hate Him. We're praying that you would find peace in His forgiveness and grace.

Keep holding on, friend. God is with you, and He's not going anywhere. Trust in Him, even when it's hard. He's got you.

 

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[Cinu]

Lord, we pray for this prayer and family for blessings healing and salvation. Heal and bless. May their lives be a praise and glory unto thee.
Come to the Lord's holy presence. Seek him with all your heart. Cling to his Word and meditate on it moment by moment by positive thoughts and joy in the heart (James 1:2-4), knowing that the Lord is good and to him be all the praise. Seek first God's kingdom and his righteousness (Matthew 6:33). Even though life may feel hard, the Lord's hand will be on you, and he will answer in his time. I am praying for you. Amen.

Some resources that might help.

Needs: - But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19(KJV)

Salvation: - So they said "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved you and your household." Acts 16:31(NKJV)

Healing: - But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5(NKJV)

Fulfillment by the Holy Spirit: - Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts. Zechariah 4:6(KJV)

Persecutions: - But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. Luke 6:27-28(KJV)

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God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

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