We come before the Lord with you in this time of deep anxiety and spiritual distress, lifting your burdens to Jesus Christ, who alone can bring true peace and deliverance. Your heart is clearly troubled by many things—fear of man, guilt over past actions, the weight of sin, and the influence of ungodly forces. Let us address these concerns with the truth of Scripture and the power of prayer, for it is only in Christ that we find freedom from condemnation and the lies of the enemy.
First, we must rebuke the spirit of fear and superstition that has taken root in your thoughts. The idea that not fist-bumping someone—regardless of their race—could somehow invite divine or political "revenge" is not grounded in biblical truth but in the enemy’s distortion of reality. Scripture tells us in 2 Timothy 1:7, *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control."* Racism is a sin, and we are called to love all people as image-bearers of God (Galatians 3:28, James 2:1-9). However, your anxiety over this interaction is not from God but from the accuser who seeks to burden you with false guilt. Repent if you have harbored prejudice in your heart, but do not let the enemy twist this into irrational fear. Social distancing during the pandemic was a public health measure, not a supernatural punishment for a perceived slight. The Lord is not in the business of orchestrating such petty retaliations—He is sovereign over all things, and His ways are just and merciful (Psalm 103:8-10).
Next, we must address the sin of pornography, which you mentioned discovering on the gifted laptop. Pornography is a grave offense against God, a perversion of the gift of sexuality meant for marriage between a man and a woman (1 Corinthians 6:18-20, Matthew 5:28). The fact that you encountered this through a gift from your uncle is not coincidental—the enemy often uses "gifts" to introduce temptation and bondage. We urge you to repent of this sin and reject any further exposure to it. Confess it to the Lord, for *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9). Destroy any access to such material and guard your heart and mind (Philippians 4:8). Your uncle’s behavior, as you described, sounds manipulative and possibly influenced by ungodly motives. It is wise to distance yourself from such influences and seek godly counsel.
You also mentioned the fear of Mormonism and the disturbing experience of hearing a voice while reading the Bible. Mormons teach a false gospel that denies the deity of Christ and the sufficiency of His sacrifice (Galatians 1:8-9). Cling to the truth of Scripture alone—Jesus is the only way to the Father (John 14:6), and salvation is by grace through faith, not by works (Ephesians 2:8-9). As for the voice you heard, this is a serious matter. The enemy can mimic voices to deceive and distract believers, but *"greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4). Reject any voice that does not align with Scripture, and ask the Lord to fill you with His Holy Spirit, who is the Spirit of truth (John 16:13). Spend time in prayer and worship, and consider fasting to break any spiritual strongholds (Matthew 17:21).
Regarding your regret over not joining the military, we encourage you to surrender this to the Lord. God’s will for your life is not a matter of missed opportunities but of present obedience. Whether in military service or civilian life, your purpose is to glorify God (1 Corinthians 10:31). If the Lord had wanted you in the military, He would have made it clear. Trust in His sovereign plan for your life, even if it looks different from what you imagined.
We also note your mention of vaping and past Xanax use. Substance abuse, even if seemingly minor, can cloud your mind and make you more susceptible to anxiety and spiritual attack. Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and we urge you to seek freedom from any dependency that hinders your walk with Christ. If this is a struggle, seek accountability and support from mature believers.
Finally, let us pray over you, claiming the victory of Christ over every fear, sin, and stronghold in your life:
*"Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of Your child, who is burdened by fear, guilt, and the attacks of the enemy. Lord, we rebuke every spirit of fear, superstition, and deception that has taken hold of their mind. Break the power of anxiety and replace it with Your perfect peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:6-7). We confess and renounce any sin of racism, pornography, or idolatry, and we ask for Your cleansing blood to wash away every stain. Lord, expose and sever any ungodly ties or influences from family members or gifts that have opened doors to the enemy. Fill them afresh with Your Holy Spirit, that they may discern Your voice clearly and walk in truth.
Father, we pray for deliverance from any demonic oppression or voices that seek to distract or deceive. Let every lying spirit be silenced in the name of Jesus Christ. We declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and that they are more than a conqueror through Christ who loves them (Romans 8:37). Lord, heal their mind from the effects of substance use and restore clarity and soundness. Give them wisdom to make godly choices and the courage to walk in obedience.
We thank You, Lord, for Your mercy and grace. You have not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. Strengthen them to stand firm in Your truth, to resist the devil, and to draw near to You with a pure heart. May they find their identity and security in Christ alone, not in the approval of man or the lies of the enemy. We ask all this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, who has triumphed over sin, death, and the grave. Amen."*
Brother, we urge you to immerse yourself in Scripture daily, to pray without ceasing, and to surround yourself with a community of believers who can support and encourage you. The battles you face are spiritual, and the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God (2 Corinthians 10:4). Stand firm in the faith, and do not give the enemy a foothold. If you have not already, we strongly encourage you to seek out a biblical counselor or pastor who can walk with you through these struggles. You are not alone—the body of Christ is here to uphold you in prayer and truth.
*"The Lord is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life. Of whom shall I be afraid?"* (Psalm 27:1). Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and finisher of your faith. He who began a good work in you will complete it (Philippians 1:6).
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
