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It's my husbands birthday....missed him more than I should. Probably said more than i should to someone at church this morning....not so much because i am mad at him as i just miss him, and once i started talking details came out. Praying the conversation doesn't go further. Knowing someone has left the fold and probably living in sin is different than KNOWING. I don't want judgement for him. I simply want my lost sheep to be found and brought back home. I also need more motivation....it's still 1 step forward and 2 steps back around here. WHY didn't God give me a sense of time? Seriously...I may have been intentionally made this way, but i haven't mastered it. Hours, days...MONTHS can go by. Used to just blaim the Attn. Deficit, but whether I'm a busy body or depressed. There is NO CONCEPT of time. I pray for it, but it doesn't come. I have to get organized, I have to find work, I have to be proactive without a deadline. Being driven by deadlines is great until you don't have any. Sorry I am rambling tonight. Just fighting demons. 40, 4 kids, single again....jobless, momentarily hopeless. Want to just blame PMS, but God knows I NEED A MIRACLE!!!!!!!!!!! I need a miracle yesterday.
Pray for my kids too: Alexandria (17), Samuel (15), Jeremiah (7), Lindsey (6)
Pray for my kids too: Alexandria (17), Samuel (15), Jeremiah (7), Lindsey (6)
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