Elizabeth F
Humble Servant of All
I am so sorry to sound self-pitying but I have been confined to bed for six years and my life really isn't worth living anymore
The only time I got out of my room was to spend two months in hospital.
Although my physical illnesses are really difficult to live with, it is my mental illnesses (General Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, Depression, and a type of OCD which is impossible to explain) which are making my life hell on earth!
I have been crying out to God for healing for years but am getting worse and now wonder whether He even hears me or am I talking to myself? Have to say this thought REALLY scares me as I put all my hope in God through Jesus who told us if we asked anything in His name God would answer.
I really need to laugh again, to get out into God's creation and breathe in fresh air and feel the sun on my body. Most of all I want to get to know Jesus. Not just keep crying out for help.
I am due to see another psychiatrist but am frightened to try another antidepressant as they have such awful side effects and affect my Crohn's Disease.
Sorry I am struggling to find the right words.
Please Jesus, if you are hearing me, please give me peace and hope for the future.
The only time I got out of my room was to spend two months in hospital.
Although my physical illnesses are really difficult to live with, it is my mental illnesses (General Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, Depression, and a type of OCD which is impossible to explain) which are making my life hell on earth!
I have been crying out to God for healing for years but am getting worse and now wonder whether He even hears me or am I talking to myself? Have to say this thought REALLY scares me as I put all my hope in God through Jesus who told us if we asked anything in His name God would answer.
I really need to laugh again, to get out into God's creation and breathe in fresh air and feel the sun on my body. Most of all I want to get to know Jesus. Not just keep crying out for help.
I am due to see another psychiatrist but am frightened to try another antidepressant as they have such awful side effects and affect my Crohn's Disease.
Sorry I am struggling to find the right words.
Please Jesus, if you are hearing me, please give me peace and hope for the future.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.