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godzgirl
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i've been out of work since last july due to loss of tranportation, financially things are a mess, i'm not going to burden you with details. i have 4 children still at home and my young adult daughter with her twins who are 18 mths have moved back home. i've applyed for work close to home with no results, i know if i "planted" myself on a door step i could open that door with presistance but i've ended up in wrong places doing it that way... i'm soooo tired of that, if god wants a door open i believe he'll open it and if he doesn't i'm not going to force my way through it as those around me feel i should. our lord told me this past summer to be still and know he is lord, since, he has confirmed that through others (they were oblivious that god was speaking through them) he has also told me to let life come to me, i feel this is because he's been reprograming me (i was raised in an atmosphere that you yourself made things happened) i've learned thats a very dangerous place to be. i'm trusting god and standing on matthew 6:25-34 i believe there is no other opotion for our situation god has me backed into a corner with no way out accept to look to him and as i said before there are those around me who don't get this and come with pressure. i'm not sure what my request is, maybe prayer, maybe to know someone other then myself believes the world has it backwards and that gods word is true and unfailing, timing is his not ours. maybe i'm looking for conformation that i'm on the right track / to define what be still and know that i am lord / let life come to me. see it's just me, god and his word. the children and i do bible and prayer time every night and pray in the morning before they leave for school and on weekends we spend hours like 2 and 3 in his word, we are not a part of a "church" at this time.. god told me what he's teaching me the "church" would be the first to hinder that and he's closed all doors concerning that, block every access to attending a services out side our home.. i was up till wee hours of the morning saturday nite into sunday morn reading job chapters 36-42, i so totally agree that i have no right to question god and what he's doing in my and my childrens lives but what if i'm wrong?? i have so many depending apon me, 4 daughters ages 8,9,11,14 and a young women whos still just a girl herself with two infants ( my grandbabies)...if i go down they go down with me. like i said i'm not really sure what my request is but if you have a heart for prayer, words of encouragement or some wisdom to share or ........... thank you for your time and may god bless you abundently.
