Garrett90
Humble Servant
I haven't been on here in quite some time. I guess you can say I gave up on praying. I've tried to stay positive and keep hope, but months of going unanswered took its toll. I've prayed with my heart, and nothing. People say it's all God's timing, and He already has everything planned out. If He has everything planned out, then what's the point in praying. And doesn't that take away free will if everything is already planned. I've been fighting depression, and because of it and me hiding it, I've lost someone I loved and cared about. I've also lost people I thought were family and friends. But they were just using me. I'm tired of being nice and helping people, putting people before myself just to be stepped on and walked over and used. I'm tired of thinking about the same person over and over and over again because I miss them and wish they were in my life again. I'm tired of battling depression and this never-ending feeling that I'm not good enough and the want to just end it all. I can't wait for God's timing. I need a miracle, this day, this hour, this minute, but I still get no help. Why am I going through this, I've had enough.
