Hungry4love357
Servant of All
I just don't understand women. This girl I thought I was hitting it off with quit talking to me suddenly. I thought we were gonna become good friends, but she won't talk to me anymore, and my step-### said I need to move on. Things were going so well. I don't know what happened. I am very confussed about it all. I waited a long time for someone like her to come into my life. A good Christian friend to for to church with and hang out with. I thought she was an answer to my prayers, but she stopped talking to me. I don't know why. I guess I was too nice to her. I am a very kind hearted person with a lot of love to give, and I guess somewhere along the way I came across too strong. I don't like feeling like I have to walk on egg shells to build a friendship with a girl. I don't get it. I am hurting. I don't know if I did something wrong or not. I will never know I guess. I can't describe what I feel. I don't fit in anywhere. I feel like I speak a different language and no one understands me, and I don't understand them either. I feel like I am in a bad position. I feel like I am in a nightmare and I scream for help, I try to wake up, and hope for a break one the darkness but no one can see me, no one can hear me. I pray to God for a clear answer, for hope, a light at the end of this tunnle, but there's nothing. I just want a friend, a sister in Christ to be friends with. Jesus, what do I do? I need help. I am trapped by fears, and doubts, and I feel lonely because I am so shy. I feel like because this girl stopped talking to me, that I did something wrong. I am starting to wonder if I will ever meet my future wife, or ever just be able to make friends with girls at all. Jesus, please, help me.

