Numbnath
Disciple of Prayer
I’d like to pray for my friend. This is her story. My name is ###, I am ### and I live in ###. When I was a small child I got taken advantage of by my stepfather for many years and to this day I am still dealing with things that I didn’t know were even remotely connected to it. I hid it away from everyone up until last year when I decided I’d tell my mom because I was afraid he was taking advantage of my sister just like he did to me. This canon event in my life has made it so hard for me to feel normal, once everyone found out they walked on eggshells around me, yes this physically and mentally affected me but this was ages ago and all I wanted to do was protect my sister. It wasn’t about me it was always about her. I know that once people understand why I am the way I am they will never look at me the same and they will understand that the smiley, happy, acting as if nothing is wrong with me is not who I am. I have major depression, anxiety, BPD, PTSD, and dyslexia; I have trauma responses, I shut out the fact that my stepfather raped me and it started to be like that with everything. If I have a problem I will ignore it, I won’t think about it, I won’t talk about it, I won’t dream about it, etc.