May God hear the prayers of your heart and lead you, teach you and show you the love He has for you, the love that is already with you. Just believe, He says in His word, Matthew 28:20 "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." He is already with you. "Every good and perfect gift is from above." So look around at the things in your life and know they are from Him. At the times that you are alone, look at it as a gift from Him for you to spend more time with him. Paul, after his conversion went away for three years before coming back to preach and testify. He says that He goes before us. He knows your way, just trust Him, ask Him to fill and then believe that He did, do not allow the enemy make you doubt. Doubt and fear are not from God. What He allows is to show you His glory as with Gideon, in times when you feel alone, it is to draw you near to Him. Proverbs 18:21 "The tongue has the power of life and death and those who love it will eat its fruit." In other words, speak life, speak out His truth so your heart will believe and soon it will. The truth that "He loves you with an everlasting love and has drawn you with loving-kindness." Romans 10:17 "Faith comes by hearing." He loves you as you are and is already with you. Just believe and then act on that belief, you are a cherished child to Him and He watches over you with smiles. May God bless you and give you a revelation of His love in Jesus name. Amen.