Job lost everything in his life, and in his constant pain and struggle, he still trusted in God. Go to God, and rest in the wings of let him carry your burdens as his arms are stronger than anything you can imagine. I too have lost my daughter, two husbands and now the man who I love more than I've ever humanly loved anyone before has been moved across the ocean for a year. I struggle with why God has done this to me, my first husband became alcoholic, my second left us for another women after he lost 200lbs. God took all these things away from me in order to make me grow, I pray for you dear child that the restoration of you body and soul come swiftly and that God's love and light will shine through you. Please know you are never, ever alone and that God has an amazing plan for you..be still with him, be in his timing and spread Joy through the world. You are loved, and I will pray for you every day. Wait and watch what amazing miracles God has in place for you dear child, you will see the righteousness of Heaven flow over you.
Praise be to God!