seekingmercy
Faithful Servant
I no longer seek happiness, I just want a normal steady boring life where there is no sadness and tears. For a month I have left hoping for a better future, looking for things that make me happy and instead focused on the present. I'm too fragile to handle shocks, even if they are happy ones. Today was supposed to be a happy surprise but instead I've been upset and everything that I have suppressed came out and made me cry again. Please just give me normalcy. Thank you. That's my only prayer to you. Give me a boring uneventful life, where I get rewarded if I work hard, and nothing else.
