God is always with us, but we need to know how get close to him ., and our desperate times we need to confess our sins, repent with all our heart and ask for forgivnes,once we do this , give thanks to him also with all our heart, thanks for everething he has given you . after we give him thanks, we ask for your desperation ,your anxieties and worries pray and sing to him , sing with all your heart ,. youll see that God is there that you are not alone. always obey the Lord, listen to his voice you' ll be ok I'll pray also for you with all my heart , everything is going to be ok in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, he'll bless you because you are his child. I love you and I'll continue praying for you and peace be with you