MikeKevin
Disciple of Prayer
I believe I've been under a supernatural curse. Stuck in a Hell dimension, a matrix written by a sadist. Stagnation, failure, loneliness, depression has been my lot for decades. No matter how hard I try to get out, I can\'t. I\'m 48 years old with a bad back and no health insurance. I work at a min wage job with teenagers who are my bosses. It\'s degrading, humiliating, demeaning. It\'s been over a decade since I\'ve been romantic with a woman. I\'m so lonely. My Mother is a cold sociopath. My father is a self absorbed narcissist. I\'ve sought out God, but my prayers seem blocked. I\'ve sought out different religions. Raised Christian, I called to Christ. Nothing. I then called to the God of Abraham. Nothing. Buddha, Nothing. Science, Nothing. I\'m desperate. Desperate folk do desperate thing. I want to be healthy, happy, find love. I want the universe to restore the years the locusts have eaten. Please don't tell me 'God hears your prayers'. Perhaps he hears YOURS. But two people can be right beside each other in in two separate universes/dimensions. Mine is one where God doesn't hear me. I've had decades of proof of that. Perhaps in your dimension YOUR God can get through my dimension and help? In the Bible, if you believe in that, God said when he created Adam "It's not good for man to be alone". I've been alone for most of my life. I haven't had a girlfriend in over a decade or a best friend, ever, shy of my cat. I've prayed for companionship, friendship, love, and nothing. I've prayed for re-assurance of God's existence and love and nothing. Everytime I try to make something out of my life be it career, relationships, the universe throws a monkey wrench in my plans. I'm a lonely 50 year old man with no circle of friends, a cold distant family, no romance, no faith, no hope, a crappy min wage job and a bad back with no health insurance. Please pray for me. Perhaps you are in another dimension. One where there is a God. And your God and reach into my dimension and save me.