moldyfan
Disciple of Prayer
I have been in NYC pretty much all my life, son of immigrant family - lived in the same tenement building, having never moved. I'm struggling everyday in search of a better life - taking mediocre jobs non related to my major. I'm not picky at jobs, I go on different interviews, taking whatever jobs I can get in this tough economy. I wish to return to school for a master's degree? (even made it to one but could not afford to attend). I even want to pay for my sister's tuition one day - she went to it for a brief moment but has yet to return to finish her degree. I do not have health insurance because I do not work full time which makes me anxious that I might get sick or hurt. We only have taken two family trips in our time.
Our apartment is quite noisy with the neighbors downstairs playing loud music in the middle of the night. Also, the neighbors next door seem to enjoy turning on the faucet at night, waking up the parents. The drilling upstairs is not helping either - cracks along the walls makes me weary that our apartment will collapse. I suspect the feng shui in our apartment is not good and we need to move but the major issue is not enough money.
I want things to go well for my retired father and mom, always working so hard at her job. Mom is a seamstress, she works super long hours. She has developed pain in her shoulders and fingers from doing repetitive tasks all this time. My dad is retired and not in the best of health, various ailments including stomach and sleep issues - but NYC is not the place for them. High cost of living of NYC just places more stress on us too. They have not taken a vacation in ages and have not enjoyed the American Dream. I want to be able to care for them. In essence, I feel I am not doing enough to make their lives easier - I'm 28. I know and see that they wake up and go to bed wishing for a better future. Sometimes they fight over issues and I think a lot of times it has to do with money. I don't want them to be stuck in this state, in this apartment anymore.
It would be so nice if I can move out of NYC with the parents and not have any financial burdens anymore. To Boston or Canada. It's a struggle especially in this city. My parents been through so much to not be able to enjoy life.
I have some debt issues that has kept me awake for months - not sure when that will be resolved. I tend to over think things, keep it to myself. I'm naturally quiet, but there was a point I was outgoing and lively. I don't wish to keep dwelling on this anymore. I wish to not be in a rush, to not be anxious and speak clearly and concisely in English and my native tongue, Cantonese - explaining, reflecting, recalling. And come up with stuff to talk about - like chit chat. Also, if I can just work better with my hands, that would be quite helpful too.
I've never asked for a handout. But I prayed a lot to God and even to my ancestors for change, a miracle. I have even racked my brains out to come up with the next big thing, in a website. I have a couple of ideas but I don't have the capital to do those websites. We need to experience something different.
To be able to get out of NYC, possibly in the suburbs with the parents. No more financial burdens (mom could finally retire and live a more comfortable life) anymore with everyone in good health. I definitely believe all the arguments and our health would greatly improve with a change of environment. Simple, non complicated lifestyle.
Thanks for taking the time to listen. Possibly $### to $### would work. More is appreciated if it happens. We will definitely give back to charity if our lives can miraculously change.
You probably have heard painful stories. But that was the truth - I don't know how to tell otherwise.
Thanks.
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Our apartment is quite noisy with the neighbors downstairs playing loud music in the middle of the night. Also, the neighbors next door seem to enjoy turning on the faucet at night, waking up the parents. The drilling upstairs is not helping either - cracks along the walls makes me weary that our apartment will collapse. I suspect the feng shui in our apartment is not good and we need to move but the major issue is not enough money.
I want things to go well for my retired father and mom, always working so hard at her job. Mom is a seamstress, she works super long hours. She has developed pain in her shoulders and fingers from doing repetitive tasks all this time. My dad is retired and not in the best of health, various ailments including stomach and sleep issues - but NYC is not the place for them. High cost of living of NYC just places more stress on us too. They have not taken a vacation in ages and have not enjoyed the American Dream. I want to be able to care for them. In essence, I feel I am not doing enough to make their lives easier - I'm 28. I know and see that they wake up and go to bed wishing for a better future. Sometimes they fight over issues and I think a lot of times it has to do with money. I don't want them to be stuck in this state, in this apartment anymore.
It would be so nice if I can move out of NYC with the parents and not have any financial burdens anymore. To Boston or Canada. It's a struggle especially in this city. My parents been through so much to not be able to enjoy life.
I have some debt issues that has kept me awake for months - not sure when that will be resolved. I tend to over think things, keep it to myself. I'm naturally quiet, but there was a point I was outgoing and lively. I don't wish to keep dwelling on this anymore. I wish to not be in a rush, to not be anxious and speak clearly and concisely in English and my native tongue, Cantonese - explaining, reflecting, recalling. And come up with stuff to talk about - like chit chat. Also, if I can just work better with my hands, that would be quite helpful too.
I've never asked for a handout. But I prayed a lot to God and even to my ancestors for change, a miracle. I have even racked my brains out to come up with the next big thing, in a website. I have a couple of ideas but I don't have the capital to do those websites. We need to experience something different.
To be able to get out of NYC, possibly in the suburbs with the parents. No more financial burdens (mom could finally retire and live a more comfortable life) anymore with everyone in good health. I definitely believe all the arguments and our health would greatly improve with a change of environment. Simple, non complicated lifestyle.
Thanks for taking the time to listen. Possibly $### to $### would work. More is appreciated if it happens. We will definitely give back to charity if our lives can miraculously change.
You probably have heard painful stories. But that was the truth - I don't know how to tell otherwise.
Thanks.
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