We hear the depth of your pain and despair, and our hearts ache with you. The weight you carry is heavy, and the sense of hopelessness you describe is not something to be dismissed lightly. But we must first address a critical truth: **you are not a mistake.** The enemy would love for you to believe that lie, but Scripture declares that you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), known by God before you were even formed in the womb (Jeremiah 1:5). The fact that you exist means God has a purpose for you—even if you cannot see it right now.
Your words suggest a deep sense of betrayal, as if God has turned His back on you. But let us be clear: **God does not delight in your suffering.** He is not the author of confusion or despair (1 Corinthians 14:33). The trials you face may feel like evidence of His absence, but Scripture tells us that He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18) and that He collects every one of your tears (Psalm 56:8). The enemy wants you to believe that God is against you, but the cross of Christ proves otherwise. Jesus endured the ultimate suffering so that you would never have to walk through pain alone.
You mention that your prayers for good things have gone unanswered, that dreams have been lost, and that relationships have been strained or ruined. We do not know the full story behind these struggles, but we do know this: **God’s delays are not His denials.** What may feel like silence or rejection could be His protection or preparation for something greater. Joseph endured betrayal, slavery, and imprisonment before God elevated him to save nations (Genesis 50:20). Job lost everything but was restored double (Job 42:10). The disciples despaired at the crucifixion, only to witness the resurrection. Your story is not over.
We must also address the nature of your prayer. Asking God to "delete" or "destroy" you is not a request He honors. Life is sacred, and suicide is not God’s will for you. The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that you may have life—and have it abundantly (John 10:10). The enemy wants you to believe that death is the only escape, but God offers redemption, restoration, and eternal hope. You are not beyond His reach.
As for the relationships you mention—whether with family, friends, or others—we do not know the specifics, but we urge you to examine whether any of these connections are drawing you closer to Christ or pulling you away from Him. Scripture warns us not to be unequally yoked (2 Corinthians 6:14) and to guard our hearts (Proverbs 4:23). If these relationships are toxic or ungodly, it may be God’s mercy that they are being removed from your life. But if they are godly connections, we must pray for healing and reconciliation.
We also notice your use of symbols (###) where names or details might be. While we respect your privacy, we encourage you to bring these specifics before God in prayer. He knows the names, the hurts, and the desires of your heart. Nothing is hidden from Him.
Now, let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother/sister who is in deep despair. Lord, You see the pain, the confusion, and the sense of hopelessness that has taken root. We ask that You would break through the darkness with Your light. Remind them that they are not forgotten, not abandoned, and not a mistake. You knit them together in their mother’s womb, and You have a plan for their life—a plan for hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).
Father, we rebuke the lies of the enemy that tell them they are unworthy or unwanted. Your Word says that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). You loved them before they ever took a breath. We ask that You would replace their despair with Your peace, their confusion with Your clarity, and their hopelessness with Your hope.
Lord, we pray for the dreams and desires of their heart. If any of these are not aligned with Your will, we ask that You would remove them and replace them with Your perfect plan. If they are from You, we ask that You would restore what has been lost and bring them to fruition in Your timing. Give them the strength to wait on You, even when it feels impossible.
We also pray for their relationships. Father, reveal any connections that are not of You and give them the wisdom to walk away if needed. For those relationships that are meant to be, we ask for healing, restoration, and unity. Protect them from harm, both seen and unseen, and surround them with godly influences who will point them to You.
Above all, Lord, we ask that You would draw them closer to You. Let them feel Your presence in tangible ways—through Your Word, through prayer, through the love of Your people. Remind them that You are their refuge and strength (Psalm 46:1) and that nothing can separate them from Your love (Romans 8:38-39).
We declare that the spirit of suicide and despair has no place in their life. We command it to leave in the name of Jesus, for He came to give life, and life abundantly. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, Lord, and let them walk in the freedom and victory that is theirs through Christ.
We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the name by which we are saved and through which we have access to You. Thank You, Father, for hearing our prayer and for Your unfailing love. Amen.
Friend, we know the road ahead may feel impossible right now, but you are not walking it alone. The same God who parted the Red Sea, who raised Jesus from the dead, and who has sustained His people through every trial is with you. Cling to Him. Cry out to Him. Let His Word be your anchor in the storm. And if you do not know Him as your Savior, we urge you to surrender your life to Jesus Christ today. He is the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6), and there is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12).
You are loved. You are valued. And your life has purpose. Do not give up.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
