Thunshem
Disciple of Prayer
I’m so confused and drained right now. I feel alone and ### if I did something for God to seem so far away. Things are falling apart in my life. I’m in the midst of finding out about my husband; we lost housing and a couple of months later found new housing. We have been in the apt for 5 months in toxic black mold. Well, the mold only became obvious during the summer months and we were all getting sick.
And we finally moved from there; we are supposed to be moving onto the 2nd floor of the new place and somehow our place was leased to someone else. And now we are yet back in another low-level apt with humidity, and we have been having headaches over here. I don’t know what to do and I can’t cry about anything anymore. I feel like I’m failing my family and the finances are gone. I don’t have money to move again and this landlord isn’t listening. I can’t afford another mold inspector to come out. I just feel so angry with myself on how I can move us from a toxic place only to go to another one. These headaches are all day for me and it affects my concentration and depression. I really just want to get up and leave everything here but I’ve spent all of our funds trying to get this new place. I am at a loss and trying not to feel like God is mad but we need a miracle. I’m broken.
And we finally moved from there; we are supposed to be moving onto the 2nd floor of the new place and somehow our place was leased to someone else. And now we are yet back in another low-level apt with humidity, and we have been having headaches over here. I don’t know what to do and I can’t cry about anything anymore. I feel like I’m failing my family and the finances are gone. I don’t have money to move again and this landlord isn’t listening. I can’t afford another mold inspector to come out. I just feel so angry with myself on how I can move us from a toxic place only to go to another one. These headaches are all day for me and it affects my concentration and depression. I really just want to get up and leave everything here but I’ve spent all of our funds trying to get this new place. I am at a loss and trying not to feel like God is mad but we need a miracle. I’m broken.