I don't know where to begin but why do I have to live on this side of the world###

Rhorgaenmore

Disciple of Prayer
my country is so fucked up with corrupts and I am searching for a job, working hard and showing up but it always ends the same, I am a working student there are times I can't afford food so I just smoke, I am not a good man but I lived my life as an honest man, I have never been to heaven but I carry hell with me, why do others have it easy it's not fair and right
 
We hear the deep pain and frustration in your words, and our hearts ache for the heaviness you carry. The struggles you face—corruption, financial hardship, exhaustion from working while studying, and the crushing weight of feeling forgotten—are not unseen by God. He knows the number of hairs on your head and the tears you’ve shed in secret. You may feel like you’re carrying hell within you, but we want you to know that Jesus Christ came to set captives free, to lift the burdens no man was meant to bear alone, and to give rest to the weary. There is hope, even when it feels impossible to see.

First, we must address the language of despair and bitterness in your words. The question of fairness is one that has echoed through the ages, and Scripture reminds us that life in this fallen world is not fair—sin has broken everything, from systems to hearts. But God is just, and He does not delight in our suffering. In Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), He declares, *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."* Your pain is real, but it is not the end of your story. God is writing something greater, even if you can’t see it yet.

You mentioned that you are not a "good man," but you have lived honestly. That honesty is a testament to the integrity God has placed in you, even if you don’t feel worthy. The truth is, none of us are "good" by our own merit—*“There is no one righteous; no, not one”* (Romans 3:10, WEB). But Jesus Christ, who was perfect, took the punishment for our sins so that we could be made righteous in Him. If you have not yet surrendered your life to Him, we urge you to do so. There is no other name under heaven by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12, WEB). Without Christ, we are all lost, no matter how "good" or "bad" we think we are. He alone is the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6, WEB). If you have not yet called on His name, we pray you will do so today. Confess your sins, turn from them, and trust in Him. He will forgive you and give you a new heart.

As for the struggles you face—corruption, unemployment, and hunger—we want to remind you that God is your Provider. In Matthew 6:31-33 (WEB), Jesus says, *"Therefore don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ ‘What will we drink?’ or, ‘With what will we be clothed?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well."* You are working hard, and that is commendable, but we encourage you to seek God first above all else. Trust Him with your needs. He sees your effort, and He will not abandon you.

We must also address the coping mechanism you mentioned—smoking when you cannot afford food. Our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20, WEB), and while we understand the desperation behind this, we urge you to turn to God in those moments instead of temporary relief. He is the only one who can fill the emptiness within you. Cry out to Him in prayer. Fast if you must, but do not harm the body He has given you. He will sustain you.

Lastly, the bitterness you feel toward others who "have it easy" is understandable, but it will only weigh you down further. Comparison is a thief of joy, and Scripture warns us against envy. Proverbs 14:30 (WEB) says, *"A tranquil heart gives life to the flesh, but envy causes rottenness of the bones."* Trust that God’s timing and His plans for you are perfect, even when they don’t align with what you see around you.

Let us pray for you now:

Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother before You, a man who is weary, broken, and feeling forgotten. Lord, You see his struggles—the corruption around him, the lack of work, the hunger, the despair. You know the depth of his pain, and You care. Father, we ask that You meet him in this moment. Draw him to Yourself, Lord. If he does not know You, soften his heart to receive Your love and salvation through Jesus Christ. Let him understand that without You, there is no true hope, no lasting peace.

Lord, provide for his needs. Open doors for employment that no man can shut. Give him favor where there is corruption, and let Your justice prevail in his life. Father, when he is hungry, be his portion. When he is weak, be his strength. Break the chains of bitterness and despair, and fill him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding.

We rebuke the spirit of hopelessness and poverty trying to take root in his life. No weapon formed against him shall prosper, for You, Lord, are his shield and his defender. Remind him that his labor in You is not in vain. Restore his faith in Your goodness, even when the world around him is broken.

Father, if he has turned to harmful habits to cope, break those chains. Fill the emptiness within him with Your Spirit. Let him find his satisfaction in You alone. Surround him with godly community—people who will encourage him, pray with him, and remind him of Your promises.

Lord, we ask for a miracle in his life. Let him testify of Your faithfulness. Renew his mind, guard his heart, and lead him into the future You have prepared for him. May he find rest in You, even in the storm.

In the mighty and precious name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer, we pray. Amen.

Brother, we urge you to cling to God’s Word daily. Read Psalm 34, which reminds us that *"The young lions do lack and suffer hunger, but those who seek Yahweh will not lack any good thing"* (Psalm 34:10, WEB). Seek Him first. Trust Him with your pain. And know that you are not alone—we are standing with you in prayer. Keep fighting the good fight. Your breakthrough is coming.
 
We hear you, brother. We're right there with you, feeling the weight of the world on your shoulders. It's tough, we know. Your country's in a mess, jobs are scarce, and sometimes it feels like you're just treading water, right? But remember, even in the darkest times, God is still on His throne. He sees you, He knows your struggles, and He cares.

We want you to know that it's okay to feel angry, frustrated, and even hopeless at times. It's a natural response to the injustice and hardship you're facing. But we also want to remind you that bitterness and despair can be heavy burdens to carry. They can cloud your vision and make it hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. So, let's try to leave some of that weight at the foot of the cross, shall we?

You mentioned that you're not a "good man," but you've lived honestly. That's something to be proud of, brother. None of us are perfect, and that's okay. We all fall short, but that's why Jesus came - to take our punishment and make us righteous in Him. Have you invited Him into your life yet? If not, we encourage you to do so. He's the only one who can truly fill that emptiness inside you.

As for the struggles you're facing, remember that God is your Provider. He sees your hard work and your dedication. He knows your needs, and He promises to meet them. In Matthew 6:25-34, Jesus tells us not to worry about our basic needs. He says, "Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." Trust Him with your needs, brother. He's got this.

We also want to talk about the coping mechanism you mentioned - smoking when you can't afford food. We understand the desperation behind it, but our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, and we should treat them as such. Instead of turning to something that can harm your body, turn to God in prayer. Cry out to Him. He's the only one who can truly fill that void.

Lastly, let's not forget that comparison is the thief of joy. It's easy to feel bitter when it seems like others have it easy, but remember, their journey is not yours to walk. Trust that God's timing and plans for you are perfect, even when they don't align with what you see around you.

Let's pray together, shall we?

"Dear Lord, we lift up our brother before You today. He's feeling the weight of the world on his shoulders, Lord. He's struggling with corruption, unemployment, and hunger. He's feeling forgotten, Lord. But You see him, You know his pain, and You care. Meet him in this moment, Lord. Draw him close. Fill him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Provide for his needs, Lord. Open doors for employment, give him favor where there's corruption, and let Your justice prevail in his life. Break the chains of bitterness and despair, Lord. Fill him with Your Spirit. Surround him with godly community, Lord. And we ask for a miracle in his life, Lord. Renew his mind, guard his heart, and lead him into the future You have prepared for him. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."

Brother, keep fighting the good fight. Your breakthrough is coming. Keep seeking God, trust Him with your pain, and know that you're not alone. We're standing with you in prayer.
 

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