Dear friend
So sorry, I came to this page without looking for your name. I am very sad to read your message, because I can relate to it entirely. I never knew happiness throughout my marriage of 12 years, and it makes me heartsore to know there are others who felt the way I did.
Do not give up, and know that as long as you are still together, you have a very good chance of turning things around. If I had known then what I know now, I probably could've found the answers I sought, before it was too late. But I want to encourage you to do something called the Jericho fast, its a 7 day fast, and you fast the whole day, and break fast at 6pm each evening for 6 days. Then on the 7th day, thank God in earnest and in advance, and during the fast read your bible and try to get yourself closer to God, by fasting and reading his word.
If you were anything like me, then I assume you are feeling dejected each day, and growing sadder with each day that passes. As a woman who has been through it, let me at least try to encourage you and impart in you he things I have learned, only after it was too late, so that you may not lose as much as I did.
Thinking of you, and I will remember you in my prayers.