I do give up God. You never wanted to help. Like each and every time, I have to swallow my heartache, pain, dreams. Nothing matter anymore, You failed all your promises. I won't bother again.............
God is good.
If you have to swallow your heartache, pain, then you don't know what the gospel is all about. We are bought with a price, the blood of Jesus shed on the mercy seat. When the angels heralded the news of the birth of Jesus, they said, "Peace on earth, good will towards men!" The instant Jesus was born, peace between God and man happened, because Jesus is the Prince of Peace. Good will towards men...Jesus revealed the heart of His Father to people by the works He did, he healed them all, cast out devils, and told of the kingdom of God, where righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Ghost reign in OUR hearts. God is good and if you have not seen that, I encourage you to step outside of "I" and submit to Him. "I" keeps us focused on ourselves, we see ourselves 'victims' and we think/believe God does not hear. Well, if we believe that, then we don't KNOW who God is. We have not entered into that relationship of a child and their Father. God is love, He is light, He is good. The LORD is gracious, full of compassion, slow to anger and of great mercy, the LORD is good to all and His tender mercies are over all His works.
You are loved and I encourage you to get into the word of God and find out for yourself. Stop listening to the devil accuses God for not being who He says he is. The devil is a liar!
Father, thank you for loving this person, even in deception, this person is greatly loved. Your heart for him is to be reconciled back to you so I ask you to give them the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of your love, that came through Christ Jesus. Enlighten their eyes to the truth so that they repent (means changing the way you have believed and thought) and come to the knowledge of the truth and be saved and walk in the freedom that Jesus died to give them. Freedom from 'self, me, myself, and I', for your plans for their life is for good and not for evil. In the name of Jesus. Amen.