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andi323
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I am so very very thankful, grateful to Jehovah for all the miracles He allowed us to see over the past week or so with my sister. Last night she had her daughter-in-law take a picture of her smiling and send it to me. I thought I would never see my sister smile again. I am so full of gratitude and awe.
But today has been such a difficult day and I'm not really sure why. I woke with such a heavy, oppressive feeling and it has not eased up even though I've prayed and I've tried to ignore it, tried to work hard today and not think about it, but tonight, home alone, it feels as if my own walls are crashing in on me - feels like now that I can relax a bit over my sister and my family crisis, my own huge problems have come back into view. My own heartache, my own fear and worry for my future, the feeling that time is running out for me. Very soon I will be faced with the checks they do at my work and I will be faced with losing my job, unless a miracle occurs.
I have no doubt in miracles, but I just feel so small and scared against all these mountains. I still feel the heartache over Ben, although I am still praying for him through the pain and anger I feel. Tonight, while feeling so happy and thankful to God for the miracles we've seen with my sister, I am battling pain, fear, and am feeling very alone. I am trying to pray through it, but I think I need the help, prayers of others tonight.
Thank you - everyone here has been so wonderful.
But today has been such a difficult day and I'm not really sure why. I woke with such a heavy, oppressive feeling and it has not eased up even though I've prayed and I've tried to ignore it, tried to work hard today and not think about it, but tonight, home alone, it feels as if my own walls are crashing in on me - feels like now that I can relax a bit over my sister and my family crisis, my own huge problems have come back into view. My own heartache, my own fear and worry for my future, the feeling that time is running out for me. Very soon I will be faced with the checks they do at my work and I will be faced with losing my job, unless a miracle occurs.
I have no doubt in miracles, but I just feel so small and scared against all these mountains. I still feel the heartache over Ben, although I am still praying for him through the pain and anger I feel. Tonight, while feeling so happy and thankful to God for the miracles we've seen with my sister, I am battling pain, fear, and am feeling very alone. I am trying to pray through it, but I think I need the help, prayers of others tonight.
Thank you - everyone here has been so wonderful.
