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I am quite disgusted with myself right now, as well I should be. I am so unmotivated to do anything, including get out of bed. My apartment is now a cluttered pig sty. I am ashamed. I am so overwhelmed with the whole thing that I just avoid it. I have also become a spoiled brat when it comes to Jim. We go out to eat all the time. We are wasting money, and we are not eating as well as we could be, were I to cook for us. The man really loves me and expects very little from me except for my company. He does not feel taken advantage of at all. But that doesn't mean I am doing right by him. He deserves nutritious, home cooked meals, and he deserves to live in tidy, uncluttered apartment. (Again, we are not lovers). Please pray for me in terms of my resolve: Pray I get up in morning and just start and that God guides me as to what to do first and when and how to get this apartment clean and neat and ship shape and that I follow through with grocery shopping and meal planning.
Thank you very much in advance for your prayers. I really do have bad depression, but you know what? Looking at this awful mess is adding to that feeling. Not only that, some of this is laziness, like if I don't feel like doing something, I don't do it. Lack of self-discipline, pure and simple. I am pretty sure God is not pleased with me in this regard. Your sister in Christ, Lamb.
Thank you very much in advance for your prayers. I really do have bad depression, but you know what? Looking at this awful mess is adding to that feeling. Not only that, some of this is laziness, like if I don't feel like doing something, I don't do it. Lack of self-discipline, pure and simple. I am pretty sure God is not pleased with me in this regard. Your sister in Christ, Lamb.
