Sheirmaruormir
Disciple of Prayer
Hello,
I want to thank you for your previous prayers. They have meant so much to me and I appreciate it.
Over the past six months, I have applied to nearly 600 jobs across 15 different states and I have not landed one. To get continuous rejection after rejection has been difficult and it is mentally getting to me.
Since I am not working, I have been the full-time stay at home dad for my two young children and I have received little to no help. My in-laws live about an hour away but do not help often or come to visit. With my parents, they are divorced and my mom lives over 2000 miles away and my dad is on disability so he cannot do much physically.
My wife works from home but rather than give me a break, she does things of her own. This includes going for walks, going to bible study, hanging out with friends or family, etc. Unfortunately, she does not let me hangout with friends or do a men’s bible study unless I take one of the kids with me, which she does not do. Since I have been looking for a job, I have faced a lot of negativity from my wife from how I parent, to getting my PhD was worthless because I don’t have a job (I finished my program last month), and have been threatened with divorce on numerous occasions.
Additionally, since I have not been working and I need to take care of my kids my credit card debt has increased significantly and my student loan debt is extremely large. I have six figures worth of debt and the burden of that debt is weighing heavy on me. I don’t have the financial means to pay the bills next month, so I have 13 days to somehow get the money to pay the debts that I owe next month.
Overall, I am mentally and emotionally drained. I am to a point where I cannot do this much longer and I feel like I failed everybody. I feel like I have failed my wife, kids, family, and God. Today I have faced a lot of temptation to drink because of everything going on and so far God has given me the strength to resist it. All I want is to provide for my family, take care of my kids, go to church on Sundays, and grow with God but these past six months have been so challenging and exhausting that I mentally cannot take much more of this any longer.
Please pray for me that God sees me and that He sees my struggles and pain, because I feel so lost and hurt. I just don’t see a positive outcome in life right now and am so lost as to why this is happening.
Thank you.
I want to thank you for your previous prayers. They have meant so much to me and I appreciate it.
Over the past six months, I have applied to nearly 600 jobs across 15 different states and I have not landed one. To get continuous rejection after rejection has been difficult and it is mentally getting to me.
Since I am not working, I have been the full-time stay at home dad for my two young children and I have received little to no help. My in-laws live about an hour away but do not help often or come to visit. With my parents, they are divorced and my mom lives over 2000 miles away and my dad is on disability so he cannot do much physically.
My wife works from home but rather than give me a break, she does things of her own. This includes going for walks, going to bible study, hanging out with friends or family, etc. Unfortunately, she does not let me hangout with friends or do a men’s bible study unless I take one of the kids with me, which she does not do. Since I have been looking for a job, I have faced a lot of negativity from my wife from how I parent, to getting my PhD was worthless because I don’t have a job (I finished my program last month), and have been threatened with divorce on numerous occasions.
Additionally, since I have not been working and I need to take care of my kids my credit card debt has increased significantly and my student loan debt is extremely large. I have six figures worth of debt and the burden of that debt is weighing heavy on me. I don’t have the financial means to pay the bills next month, so I have 13 days to somehow get the money to pay the debts that I owe next month.
Overall, I am mentally and emotionally drained. I am to a point where I cannot do this much longer and I feel like I failed everybody. I feel like I have failed my wife, kids, family, and God. Today I have faced a lot of temptation to drink because of everything going on and so far God has given me the strength to resist it. All I want is to provide for my family, take care of my kids, go to church on Sundays, and grow with God but these past six months have been so challenging and exhausting that I mentally cannot take much more of this any longer.
Please pray for me that God sees me and that He sees my struggles and pain, because I feel so lost and hurt. I just don’t see a positive outcome in life right now and am so lost as to why this is happening.
Thank you.