punkin
Humble Servant of All
I have been praying for a new job since last Christmas ..I had a job that cause me to be stressed , and in a bad mood..I was depressed and cried on my days off because I could not bear the thought of going back..the job paid poorly, worked me very hard and I had ZERO benefits..My prayers have gone unanswered..finally I tool a giant leap of faith and put my entire trust in HIM and quit this horrible job..I could take NO MORE! I have applied for over 60 different jobs, including past places I had worked before..when I call to speak to someone about my application , they cut me off and ask my name and a good call back number ..they never call me back..One keeps telling me that they have to check if I am eligible for rehire..I have not heard anything back from these people..I have references for these jobs..I just do not understand..people are recommending jobs to me that a child could do for min. wage 8 hrs a week like I am a bored housewife or retiree looking for something to do as a hobby..not somewhere I could make a living wage ..!! I am 57, single female, who must pay my bills myself..I have no one to help..I have worked in offices in AZ before..but I only have minimal office skills and experience..but I have been applying for factory work, retirement home positions, housekeeping, retail..NO ONE WILL HIRE ME!!! It feels as even God himself has rejected me..my pleas have gone unheard and I am at my wits end!! I HAVE the faith, I HAVE the trust..I have been confessing my blessings , praising HIM, thanking him before hand for my new job..!! But now at my darkest hour, I have nothing but stress and the realization of nothing is working for my benefit ..I am scared to death..I don't know which way to turn..If I have been praying for 9 months and my prayers have gone unanswered, so what now?? I ask for forgiveness of my sins each day before I begin to pray..I attend church..I have faith, but lately I must confess..it is waivering ..all I know to do is pray, but nothing is changing..I am just getting more frustrated..I feel utterly defeated now..I am crying all the time..pleading with God to help me..but he does not..My bills are mounting, I will be getting cut off notices soon..my credit that I have been desperately trying to rebuild after 20 years will be destroyed..I feel like even my precious God whom I adore has abandoned me..Oh God help me..I just cannot do this alone..it is more than I can bear,,too much on my plate to bear alone..