I Am At The End

[carol]

I have tried....very hard...for 3 months...I have prayed till my heart aches and I have cried until my tears have run dry....My life is no better...in fact I feel as if I am not allowed to be happy....My spouse can cheat on me and then toss me aside as if I never existed...and yet gets to go on with a happy life and and a new girlfriend....and here I sit...with nothing...and no one...and no matter what I do, nothing works....I am contemplating ending it all...I just want to go to sleep and not wake up...when all my prayers are ignored.. if this is all God has left for me is to just sit in this loneliness while my spouse gets to run off with another woman and enjoy life...maybe this is what God wants...for me to just be out of the picture so that the others can be happy without me in the way....so maybe God actually wants suicide...maybe I am just such a waste in this world that the world is better off without me!! I prayed and prayed...as much and as often as I know how...for a reconciliation of my marriage...nothing...I pray for my heart to be fixed...my life to be fixed...nothing....I guess i am not worthy of any attention from God at all..he is too busy making sure my spouse and the new girlfriend can get their reservations at the Bed and Breakfast so they can have a romantic weekend....

sorry if I sound bitter...but I am....all I wanted was if not to get my spouse back, to be able to move on...but even that prayer has been totally ignored...

so..what is left....I don't see any other options...I am NOt going to just sit on the sidelines of life doing nothing....so....I am thinking of being done...If god can not come though then I will take that as a sign that god does not want me here anymore....

 

[WntrRock]

I am so sorry for what you are going through Carol, I will pray for you.

 

[The Encourager]

Let’s Pray…Father God, in the name of Jesus, I ask that You will bless my family especially Me, Myself, and I. I plead the blood of Jesus over all our lives. God bind the spirit of strife and division. Save, deliver, sanctify, set free and set apart each member of my family (including myself) for the glory of God. Make us all fit for the Master’s Use. Let Peace, Love, Joy, Hope, Faith, Excellent Health, Holiness, Wisdom, Knowledge, Understanding, Protection and Prosperity rest in each of our homes. Make our family whole in You Christ Jesus. May we all come to know You, Love You, and Obey You. Let our lives be shaped by the Word of God. And all that I have asked You God in Jesus name in this prayer please do the same for the writer of this prayer. Amen, So Be It !!!

Pass This On To All Of Your Family Members…There is So Much Power When Family Pray For Family.

Encourager Linda Flagg, LM, CS

Christian Life Coach & Youth Minister

www.theencourager.net / www.encourager.us

PS: If You Truly, Really, Absolutely Want to Be Blessed…Obey God’s Word! God Honors Obedience; You have His Word on it (Read Deuteronomy 28). Pray, Have Faith In God. Let Your Lifestyle be Shaped by the Word of God. Trust Him. Everything is going to be alright.

 

[trucker]

carol i know what you are going through i was a sinner when my wife left with my best friend she took the money from my business and run i hired a girl to work in my office she had a college degree not the place for her but god lead her there i was at the lowest point in my life alone and broke she lead me to christ i prayed and prayed about my divorce and god spoke to me and like he said its over with her i have better in store i got in church found a lady there going through what i was she was raised only 2 miles from me we have a son now i think that was gods plan all along we don't understand things alot of times but god does work i will pray for you life will get better i promise hold on to god and he will hold on to you