JEW
Prayer Warrior
I am asking prayer for myself, that I will quit letting someone control my thoughts. God is not pleased with me in letting someone control me like this. I know this not his thoughts entering my mind. I know that how I think is how I become and I don't like the way I am thinking right now. You see i have a 92 year old Mother in-law who is very bossy and controlling when I am around her. She waits until my husband is not around before she attacks me. She lives far away, so when we visit it is for several days. Every single time we go visit, she attacks me about my children or grand children. She finds fault about one of them each time i go, and trys to encourage me to approach them about things, that is none of my business. She is very jealous that we get along and I believe she wants me to attack them to get them mad at me. She seems to want my children mad at me, but not mad at her son {my husband}. I do not agree with the way some of them are living, but I know that they are in God's hands and I continue to pray for them and that is all I can do. She seems to blame me for their wrong living. They were raised in a christian home and when they got grown and on their on, I have no control over them anymore, but to pray for them. I have to believe that God's word says "Raise Them Up In the fear and admonition of the Lord, and when they are old they will return to it". I will never win them by attacking them, just as my Mother in-law attacks me. It will push them further away. I bite my tongue each time I am there to keep from being ugly to her, but I have just about had all I can take from her attacks on me. They are her son's kids too, but she never approaches him about any of this, it is always me. Each time we go to visit her, we always do work on her house, fixing things. I have never been nothing but extra good to her, and have always tried to respect her, but it is getting where I am loosing my respect for her. I feel guilty because I am having feelings like this for her, and I fight these feeling of guilt all the time, and I need prayer for myself about this. I wonder if this is normal for me to feel this way. I have even told her that I do not want to spend my time talking bad about my children, that I love them and I want it to stay that way. That makes her mad when I say i love them. She seems to think I need to hate them. I would really like to know if how I am seeing this is right and if it is because of her jealousy for me and my kids getting along. I would appreciate some insight from some one on this. Thank you for your prayers.
