Hurt

[jshduvall]

I feel so alone, I know God is always there, and I should realize that and be strong, it is hard sometimes, I ask myself why do I care about others so much even though they do not care that much for me, I wish I could be like them and not care about others I wish I could just care about nothing, I am so tired of this eternal struggle, why do I fight to keep friendship when the other person could care less, why do I want them in my life so much when they dont really care if I am in there life or not, I have been so hurt so many times, I have hurt myself outside when the hurt within was unbareable, I dont know how much longer I can keep goin, I know I should fight and keep goin but sometimes I ask myself why, I have never had someone special in my life and I start to think maybe it is because I am not good enough to have that wonderful gift in my life, why do I not just end this pain and quit breathing other peoples air, I often think I am just a waste of this flesh I was placed in, I am christian sometimes I wish I was not, that way I would not feel this need to care and try for others, I am so hurting within, the pain is always there, I go to work and act happy and full of joy but that is just what it is a show, the pain I feel has been there constantly, I have almost forgot what it is to be happy and joyful, why am I still here,why when I have come so close to death, am I still alive, what is the purpose of keeping me alive so I can feel more pain, why just let me die, I dont know if there is a person out there that can truly help me, but I am at my end please if you are a true born again christian, and you truly understand my pain and you can offer me words of comfort and strength, please pray for me, I need your strength.

 

[NETTA WALKER]

JSHDUVALL- U ARE NOT ALONE, U R LOVED, i knw it is hard to see friends and loved ones do and say wht ever and u go home to dought worry and unsure life BUT YOUR LIFE IS WORTH TO BE HERE u are safe with GOD i knw how easy it is to go to work smile joke and laugh and not truly knw how it feels (let him show u) again u are not alone your life is important GOD DOES NT MAKE A MISTAKE...GOD i pray for my friend let them knw tht they are not alone that u are always with them even at this most tring time in there life i pray GOD to u to show my new friend how to love themselves and how to let u love them so they can show others how to love u and there future mate will be right there whn they turn around in your name i pray amen

 

[TimMcGrath]

I understand where your comming from. Ive lived a God saved, but hard life...trial after trial, error after error...People will always let you down...its never going to be easy. I have a big heart and it causes so much pain. I put faith into alot of people I shouldnt, and waste alot of time trying to wait for people to change...but you cant change people or the way they want to be. I also have to add...being with someone isnt always a wonderful gift...there is alot of pain and suffering with matters of the heart. Take it from me im going through a difficult breakup. Its all so beautiful in theory, but the real situation sometimes hurts more than being alone. Your life is not EVER worth taking over anything or anyone...trust me...what if one year from now god brings someone special into your life? and your not there to recieve it...HOPE...

there is no hope in death. I dont know you and your life is valuable to me...because you have a good and caring heart, in a world of pain and suffering...its light in the world of darkness! Look around us, the world is breaking, falling apart...Look at Jesus...betrayed, rejected and alone...you have to be strong! have to! there is no other option...There is a plan for you! if you have come close to death and still live God has purpose for you. This isnt comming from a guy who has it all...im not Happy and overjoyed, or blessed with a companion...IVE lost it all!! I am alone here in a strange place, with only God by my side, like always. I totally understand ALL your pain...ive felt to low, and didnt want to breath another breath...but you never know what tomorrow brings! Seek and ye shall find... Look out your window. there is a big world out there man. so many options...If people bring me down and dont benefit me or my values, then walk away...Jesus preached to people, but he didnt carry around with him people who didnt believe in him. there are good people in the world. FEW but they exist...If you need someone to talk to...talk to me...I dont have anyone here...I feel alone and rejected...I know your pain...anytime you can write to me...it takes time to heal ....Lord you know our pain, and our situations...I ask Father that you bring us peace and wisdom. Take away the pain in our hearts in our minds. Heal us from all the worry in this world, bring us your peace...in Jesus name amen

I may not have all the answers, but if you ever need a friend who understands write me anytime im always online at work and home youll make it man...better things will come

 

[PrayzOn]

I feel so alone, I know God is always there, and I should realize that and be strong, it is hard sometimes, I ask myself why do I care about others so much even though they do not care that much for me, I wish I could be like them and not care about others I wish I could just care about nothing, I am so tired of this eternal struggle, why do I fight to keep friendship when the other person could care less, why do I want them in my life so much when they dont really care if I am in there life or not, I have been so hurt so many times, I have hurt myself outside when the hurt within was unbareable, I dont know how much longer I can keep goin, I know I should fight and keep goin but sometimes I ask myself why, I have never had someone special in my life and I start to think maybe it is because I am not good enough to have that wonderful gift in my life, why do I not just end this pain and quit breathing other peoples air, I often think I am just a waste of this flesh I was placed in, I am christian sometimes I wish I was not, that way I would not feel this need to care and try for others, I am so hurting within, the pain is always there, I go to work and act happy and full of joy but that is just what it is a show, the pain I feel has been there constantly, I have almost forgot what it is to be happy and joyful, why am I still here,why when I have come so close to death, am I still alive, what is the purpose of keeping me alive so I can feel more pain, why just let me die, I dont know if there is a person out there that can truly help me, but I am at my end please if you are a true born again christian, and you truly understand my pain and you can offer me words of comfort and strength, please pray for me, I need your strength.

Yes, there are people who can help you. Sometimes, God's angels need to come with flesh on. We have many people in my family that suffer with depression and we all need medication. In my opinion you need to get an appointment with a psyhiatrist immediately. There are many medications that will work but they take time. I do believe that answered prayers can come in the form of medications. I believe that God can work through the medical community to give us the help we need.

The other thing that was extremely helpful to me and I feel was an answer to prayer was group counseling. I say group counseling because I think you need the feedback of others. It transformed me to hear what other people think about me. I really felt people saw me differently than they did. It changed everything to get that feedback.

Often times when life gets so hard, it is hard to eat healthily, drink healthily, take care of one's body etc. That makes the cycle worse. In order to get through this, and find the hope that is available to you, you may need to do something like drink Ensure or somehow back up your body with extra nutrients.

I know that you are asking for spiritual support here and I agree, I also think these suggestions will help. Please remember that even though it seems like your life never changes and you keep ending up hurt, this is a temporary situation and you will get to the other side of it if you let yourself. Please get to the DR and start putting your energy into yourself for a change. With love and prayers, Amen.

 

[fallbackplan]

Dear Jesus....oh Lord, I pray you provide a blessing for my fellow Arkansan. I pray you touch jshduvall and just fill their heart with joy, their mind with peace, their body with happiness beyond measure. I pray you send someone into their lives who will embody you Jesus, someone who will care for them and tell them it's going to be ok. For you Lord, suffered so much for us, you died on that rugged cross for us, we don't have the right to end our lives. Our lives belong to you, it's not up to us. Sometimes we suffer, sometimes our lives are filled with joy. It is when we are at our lowest point, that you say enough, and come down and lift us up. I believe in this Lord, I know you can do it. God, I beg of you, please bless this person, they need your help Lord. Amen.