Thuseria
Disciple of Prayer
Im sorry it’s my third time in here guys, I been feeling overwhelmed in my life my lust makes me feel nasty and sometimes i think that God gave up on me because of my sin,i struggle to hold a job, it’s been 7 months since I graduated high school my life just started to worsen since and I just wanna give up on life, I feel bitter and anger some type of wickedness inside of me when I think about my situation, and I feel that against God, and why I think like that? I pray but i don’t feel him, have my sins been too much? I been living in this country since I was 12 and i am scared of getting deported because for me its already hard in America imagine in a 3rd world country, and i cannot fix my status because I don’t have money neither a job, my parents just put me unprepared in this country instead of giving me a opportunity they told me “you’re just gonna be another poor immigrant” honestly I don’t wanna wake up no more, why can’t God please just put me down? I been with so much void lately and please someone give me wisdom, I know God just doesn’t answer and just gave up on me because he already knows I gonna fail, I tried going to church but i felt judged and ashamed and socializing but im too weird, please someone just just give me wisdom don’t come saying i need to trust God if I don’t feel hes here

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.