NoahLovesFriedChicken
Humble Prayer Warrior
Hi everyone, I am just asking for a miracle in my life. Things just aren't looking good for me at all. I am honestly starting to lose hope. I have been trying, I pray, and have people praying for me. I am really hanging on a thread on my beliefs, and it is scary. I am so numb. I am struggling hard with grief and unforgiveness in my heart, trying to let things go, but some people did things to me really dirty, mainly in my family, partially destroying my parents' marriage, my mom's health, etc. I rather not go deep into specifics unless someone wants to PM me, but I just am trying to forgive as Jesus did, but it is very, very hard, especially when it keeps happening.
My mom is not doing well recently. I still live with her, and I want to move with her if she does the right thing and changes and takes her medicine right and does not drink, but recently she doesn't see it. If I move by myself, I pray I have the money and wisdom by then because I am just getting very bitter, sad, and angry here, and I don't have the fight anymore. I just want a fixed heart. It's broken. These past few years of my life have changed me so much, some for the better, but not many. I feel so lost
I don't have many places to turn. No family. I have like one friend in real life I go see, but that's about it, and God, but He feels awfully distant, or maybe it's me. I just want to have peace and live my life again and smile. I feel as soon as I leave this house and see friends, I can live again, but as soon as I come back, I just want to cry.
I wouldn't mind if anyone wants to PM or has any wisdom, and of course, prayers are appreciated. I have many unsaid prayers. God knows where my heart is and what it longs for.
My mom is not doing well recently. I still live with her, and I want to move with her if she does the right thing and changes and takes her medicine right and does not drink, but recently she doesn't see it. If I move by myself, I pray I have the money and wisdom by then because I am just getting very bitter, sad, and angry here, and I don't have the fight anymore. I just want a fixed heart. It's broken. These past few years of my life have changed me so much, some for the better, but not many. I feel so lost
I don't have many places to turn. No family. I have like one friend in real life I go see, but that's about it, and God, but He feels awfully distant, or maybe it's me. I just want to have peace and live my life again and smile. I feel as soon as I leave this house and see friends, I can live again, but as soon as I come back, I just want to cry.
I wouldn't mind if anyone wants to PM or has any wisdom, and of course, prayers are appreciated. I have many unsaid prayers. God knows where my heart is and what it longs for.
