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k8heidy
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I am writing to ask for prayer for myself, my 8 year old son Nick and my husband Mike. Nick's dad (my 1st husband Andy) killed himself in 2008. After that Nick became very morbid, drawing evil looking pictures, throwing tantrums, NEVER happy, VERY argumentative and lost his childlike innocence and carefree joy. He still has some behavior issues that scare me so deeply, he has ZERO respect for me and I am especially dreading the teen years. I would like to pray for complete healing in him and for God to fill in where I fall short. I pray he can grow up to be a healthy person who will serve God and fulfill his potential in life. My husband, Mike, who lived a very sexually immoral life in his earlier years his "Christian" dad even gave him Playboy when he was 8 years old! I believe in ways he still struggles with lust, he is an artist and in art there is a lot of nudity. I ask for prayer that God will deliver him from his lust and give him a LOUD and strong conscience with a discerning spirit for what crosses the line into sin while creating his art. Also that God helps him become a person with strong integrity. I also ask for prayer for our family financially, we are being sued (in a very unfair, unconstitutional suit) filled by a lawyer who is trying to make a name for himself. My husband has done nothing wrong (and that I know full well in my heart) and is just trying to make a living and support his family, this suit could be so damaging it has the magnitude to completely destroy us and take everything my husband has ever worked for. Please pray that God speaks loudly to the judge and that the right thing is done and we are protected from this attack completely. The stress of the suit is also causing my husband to become depressed, he is unable to sleep and it is really affecting our family. I would like prayer that God comforts, heals and strengthens him. We are living in separate houses and I would like prayer for God to help us find a house we both can live in and help us find the means to acquire it. As for myself, I had a very abusive mother and am really struggling to feel capable in my life. I have become so depressed that most days I don't even get out of bed until I have to pick up my son from school. I think the death of my 1st husband also is really affecting me. I wake up in the middle of the night like a little kid and am SO full of fear. I think about death I question my salvation and I feel in general attacked at a spiritual level. Things have gotten so hopeless feeling for me that I even have started smoking medical marijuana which I know is harming my body. I want to break free of all these horrible things and be happy in life. Right now I feel I'm just passing time waiting to die, I want to live now. I'm so sad and desperate for God to help me. I need God's help to be motivated, I feel I have become a lazy person and I DON'T WANT THAT! Please please pray for me and my family, we are all a mess! We need help, we need God!! Thank you so much for taking your time for us! God bless you!