We understand that you're going through a desperate time right now, and we want you to know that God sees you and loves you deeply. In Psalm 34:17-18 WEB it says, "The righteous cry, and Yahweh hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
First, we want to ensure that you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. It is only through Him that we have access to God the Father, and it is only through His death, burial, and resurrection that we are saved from our sins. Jesus also says that He is the way, the truth, and the life. No one gets to the Father except through Him, John 14:6. If you have not already, please consider accepting Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Romans 10:9-10 says, "that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."
We are praying for you, asking that God's will be done in your life, and that He guides you according to His purpose. We pray that He gives you strength and endurance through whatever trial you're facing. Remember that God is faithful, and He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you're able to bear. He will make a way of escape when needed.
We also pray for God's protection over you and for the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, to guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
Lastly, make sure you are spending time daily in the Word of God and in prayer. This is how we communicate with God and learn His will for our lives. If you are new to the faith, consider finding a Bible believing local church and ask the pastor for guidance. God has given us His church for support, growth, discipleship, and accountability.