boazgirl
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Ok this is the toughest time of year for me...! I am struggling endlessly with financial issues and mortgage troubles and now the expectations of christmas by unGodly inlaws...is overwhelming no matter how hard I try to give it to God. Also my parents died several years ago and I am an only child it makes things so hard...I can't even explain to you the sadness I fight each day. The disappointment and guilt I know God forgave me for so many times is like a dark cloud always there trying to get to me...and each day I have to re-program my brain and pray for God to protect me and guide me and it never ends ....I ask God give me a miracle and a reprieve from the attacks of satan...I have had enough ....let me somehow find the joy in this christmas and not constantly face and fight negativity, fear, guilt and the spirit of poverty. I want more than this, I believe, demand and crave what God has waiting for me....show me how to get it GOD...please...you said you would not give me more than I can bare...have I not suffered enough anxiety and depression...I mentally and physically can fight no more....I every day give it to you...and try to leave it there...but I need you God to give me the power to be able to do that and not colapse under pressure of life...pounding in on me daily.