Hello this message is more of a question

[Brackage]

Hello this message is more of a question c prayer request.So I'm now 27 and my parents are looking for a match.Im working with my dad's Institution and only recently this married man who is a long known acquaintance and me got attracted to each other.I now feel he's being so dicey about his likeness towards.I had ridiculous levels of trouble with my career and even I ve physical relations earlier with my boyfriends.I was born with epidermolysis bullosa yet my face is quite attractive in a sexual way and I had many issues with y blood as well.My elder sister on the other hand she started having an affair with a guy who wasn't a christian and she was only 14.She faced troubles and came out victorious and she kept on going ahead in her career and married her huy the same month I broke up with my 2nd ex with whom I've had oral sex.This guy that I had dated made me face hell and basically I see I'm ruined in every corner of my life and my sister is prosperous in every field of her life.Honestly I fail to understand if she is actually a loving person or just too cunning .I've literally begged God to help me but I've seen no results at all.

I want to know why this unfairness to me.Now my parents are looking for a match for me and some guys pictures were so that he was looking childish and I delected him and I now feel guilty rejecting him based on his looks.And I feel because I'm such a jerk this married guy at my work is playing games with me.

I'm completely lost and sometimes I feel it's only my elder sister who was always the kind hearts girl and hence her destiny helped her.But I somehow feel that's not right because the 2nd bf I dated I didn't really wanted to date him and yet accepted him and even though I fought with him because of his dominating and insulting nature I was literally on my toes to get things right.He eventually came out to be a wrong guy and yet he is prosperous with regards ro his moneynd career and I'm stuck here.
I feel ashamed of myself and i want to change.My parents are rich and had told me that they will get me married to the person who I like and I do not know how do I select a guy for myself.I seriously feel so ashamed of myself for being such useless , unsuccessful person who is depending on her parents job . I seriously feel like wanting to go back in time and live once again though this time I want a to be a good and successful person.

 

[kaye hirst]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Fenric]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Cheryl "The Earthly Angel"]

God loves you!  Remember Our God is a forgiving God.  What you feel you may have done wrong ask God to forgive you. Then please you must forgive yourself.  Pray for God's Blessing. You need to love yourself.  This love will be shown in your daily life that others will see your goodness.  God has a special plan for you.  Ask for the doors to be open so this Gods plans can be revealed to you.  

Please do not let jealousy come between you and your sister.  You are not living her life and you are not sure what she is going through on a daily base.   Focus on being happy, looking forward to a good future. Pray that Our Lord will pick out a good man for you to marry.  Ask God to open the doors for you. It will happen.  As far as the married guy at work.....tell him to take a hike.  You do not need him in your life. This is evil tempting you.  He needs to focus on his family.   Pray!  Pray!!!  and again Pray for inner PEACE!   Guidance!  Our Lords LOVE.   God will Bless you!   I am praying for all your needs. 

 

[Brackage]

Thank you so much Cheryl but the thing is I feel highly vulnerable to the attacks from these guys.The married guy at work actually he had an arranged marriage for 1.5 years now.He doesn't have any kids and the thing what I was thinking was if we both like each other why can't we be together.Ive been suffering in all walks of my like with regards to my job,my finances(I'm still in debt) my reputation and my relationships.Back in 2014 when I had started this new job which was also my 1st job my bf wanted m to leave it and I was a good hain to have trusted my sister who said she'd get me a job as she was changing too.This never happened but anyways I still kept on trying so hard to get another job,while doing the one I had and on the other hand I kept trying to make up to him and he on the hand he was happy and prosperous and neither was his reputation at stake (I mean his bff knew he was dating someone ,things could have turned by his bff asking him why he broke up and while I was making up to him he could have comeback to me.

When God knew that I actually wasn't that keen on dating him but just accepted him he could have now started to get my life on track whereas my sister she was now having a salary thrice my salary she was lucky enough to have his bf all by his side all the time and they got married in a church.He supposedly believes in Jesus Christ.She pretends to be very religious  and God fearing then why the hell did she date a guy out of christianity (and if supposedly she knew the guy believes in christianity why the hell was she the only one to have this much of luck to know it beforehand) whereas I worked myself off and I got no results at all.

I still remember when I was trying to patch up with my bf I gave my resignation letter and since he didn't respond I kept doing the job and hence my salary was on hold.I was all the time giving interviews here and there and hence my teammates treated me badly making me a target AND stillllllll I was this close to getting a job i was called again for and yet I didn't get it.I agree I had a small crush  but I held myself back thinking it's just a crush and not my real love . I was so guilty and feeling ashamed and angry because this guy could have understood me(I know he could have because of the way  we used to have oral sex.Im sorry  but I had to say it )

My sister on the other hand she wears short dresses ,sleeveless dresses and I was barred from doing so.Infact I had told him half truth of my father's profession so that he could not feel less more than what he already was feeling.

AND again started my downward spiral of my prosperity which had just started and the consequences are such that I'm still entangled in them even now.I so badly feel ashamed of me being so stupid

And this married guy how to avoid him for the entire 9 jours we work together . Especially when I know he likes me and I like him too and I'm in damn need of love and care and also my parents are already talking of my marriage and have spoken to different pastors.And also this guy he doesn't care of my skin problem which on the contrary I feel so bad almost all the time.

 

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